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I don't even know why i'm updating. I dont have much to say, its just that i've been bothered lately about the stupidest things and i can't seem to get them off my mind, but i dont want to put them down here because then that gives them validity and i hate that. I know i'm not making any sense today, this update is more for me than for anyone else. I just need to ramble, get my thoughts out as convoluted as they are so that way they can stop jumbling up inside my head. If this were a harry potter story i could use the penseive and just get rid of them, but alas i can not because i am not a wizard. Oh well. That just leaves me to the rambling fun that is my world.
You ever been disappointed because it turns out you acn't do something you had plans to do? You ever felt so disappointed and guilty for it you couldn't eat? You felt like crap all day and it was really hard to bring up your spirits? esp when people think you are always naturally bubbly? No? well then why was that my day yesterday? I need to reevaluate some things in my world. Yes i most certainly do - because there has to be something wrong with me.
Things are different here in florida - meaning i get to leave and come home when i want to, not answering to anyone. Otherwiae its still the same concept. I'm consumed by work, no time for a life, and the ones i try to find dissolve around me. I need to change something or other so i can move forward. Same rut different location? less friends? thats not cool. I love my friends, miss them, but i'm not moving back to jersey. not anytime soon. I need to figure out my life :] we'll see how well that goes
You ever been disappointed because it turns out you acn't do something you had plans to do? You ever felt so disappointed and guilty for it you couldn't eat? You felt like crap all day and it was really hard to bring up your spirits? esp when people think you are always naturally bubbly? No? well then why was that my day yesterday? I need to reevaluate some things in my world. Yes i most certainly do - because there has to be something wrong with me.
Things are different here in florida - meaning i get to leave and come home when i want to, not answering to anyone. Otherwiae its still the same concept. I'm consumed by work, no time for a life, and the ones i try to find dissolve around me. I need to change something or other so i can move forward. Same rut different location? less friends? thats not cool. I love my friends, miss them, but i'm not moving back to jersey. not anytime soon. I need to figure out my life :] we'll see how well that goes