I'm just a ?
Just full on contemplation mood right now but I don't really know how to articulate what I'm thinking and feeling. Just all rather overwhelming at this point. I have choices to make and I'm hoping that I make the best decision for me.
Right now a couple of my childhood buddies and college buddies are rather ticking me off. Okay, Okay...everyone is annoying me in one form or another. I'm don't mind being the 'mother hen' or 'the one to go to' but it gets rather old sometimes when I need to turn to someone in return and then there doesn't seem to be time to listen to what I have to say. Then they wonder why I don't spend so much time trying to 'maintain the friendship'. Thing is, I believe it's a two way street and if I don't feel like I'm getting being loved as I love you...I'm just not going to waste any more time. I'm at that age now I just don't really want to over exert myself for a person/group of people. It's bitchy I know but people grow in their own way and who am I to stop that.
Other things in life? I'm currently a lump existing in this world making no real contribution except in the world of hair. Bad. Real Bad. I'm in this slow progress of trying to change all that.
* Get more politically active
* Start Cello Lessons
* Expand my cache of authors
* Attend more cultural events
* Volunteer
etc. I need to add getting healthy on that too but it doesn't seems as important though it really is. A jacked up body can't do much now can it?
Right now a couple of my childhood buddies and college buddies are rather ticking me off. Okay, Okay...everyone is annoying me in one form or another. I'm don't mind being the 'mother hen' or 'the one to go to' but it gets rather old sometimes when I need to turn to someone in return and then there doesn't seem to be time to listen to what I have to say. Then they wonder why I don't spend so much time trying to 'maintain the friendship'. Thing is, I believe it's a two way street and if I don't feel like I'm getting being loved as I love you...I'm just not going to waste any more time. I'm at that age now I just don't really want to over exert myself for a person/group of people. It's bitchy I know but people grow in their own way and who am I to stop that.
Other things in life? I'm currently a lump existing in this world making no real contribution except in the world of hair. Bad. Real Bad. I'm in this slow progress of trying to change all that.
* Get more politically active
* Start Cello Lessons
* Expand my cache of authors
* Attend more cultural events
* Volunteer
etc. I need to add getting healthy on that too but it doesn't seems as important though it really is. A jacked up body can't do much now can it?