i wonder how the lives of others can be so upside down? confusing? hopeless? ... no matter what you call it, it's just something that happens to make them feel everything short of happiness. i am not struck with pity, for i believe everything happens for a reason, but i am enlightened to bring change. to do something for the greater good. to give and not receive. i have lived my selfish life, rolling in my riches (not money per say) -- all the good things i am priviledged to have, and most of what i take for granted. life isn't easy. and i've never heard anyone say it is. but we are here to help eachother. each and every one of us. in ways of any shape or kind. big or small.
all the lessons i've learned as i live my life, i credit to those who i surround myself with. they show me what to strive for, what to fear, and how to appreciate what God gives (and has given) me.
i guess you can call this "quest" a spiritual journey. as i fill my soul with lessons learned, love lost, and everything in between, i also fill it with growth and understanding of the world and how it works. life's definitely not fair. i have ways of proving that. but life is wasted if you refuse to act. act upon instinct, command, any and every way possible to get you to succeed...to live.
in love, i have found not only to trust, but to care more, and also to understand. to find that one (or many) good qualities, and appreciate a person for that. never look down on someone for their fllaws. everyone has something positive to contribute.
i think back on a few weeks ago. my family and i went to some friends house for a special father's day dinner. a simple trip and i realized a lot. i realized how much i admire what is passed on -- whether you agree with it or not. i love the traditions held for generation after generation. or the people with the courage to start a new one. the patriarch of the family, dick griswold, gave a speech. it brought him to tears. for his love of the Lord was so strong, so filled with passion, that even a noble and proud man, will cry. not because of fear, or sadness, but because of the love. and he reached out to me with his words. i was transfixed by the power of speech. these simple letters combined to have such an influence i could have never imagined.
i'm not thinking too much of what i'm typing. or what point i am trying to make. just carrying on with thoughts. send me someone that will discuss with me. someone to challenge me in every way. and with each triumph they will triumph too.
love will make you do things you never would. love is funny. it's one word with many meanings. the greeks had several different words for love, all to express the connotation. in english, we have like. a small percent of the strength of love. there are many things i love, in so many ways. a variety of emotions fill me. but i swear to never let things slip away. for what i have now, i am truly blessed.