Updatery...
So, I called my dad just now; got him just as he's pulling into the hospital in Florida. Got some information I didn't have, namely that Grampa Tony has refused open-heart surgery or any treatment that would put him in machines, like dialysis...
...which I guess means he's on his way out, more than likely. Dying; I should probably say the word...he's fuckin' dying.
That's bringing up emotions I didn't know I was capable of. I guess I love my Grampa Tony; I always just sorta thought of him as just this guy, yanno? I didn't grow up in one of those families where the relatives lived close to us and we saw them all the time; my family was spread out all over the damn place...I kinna grew a bit detached from them. Or so I thought, anyway. So I guess I'm a little surprised by how this is hitting me. Hrm. Odd.
I need food. And water. I went WAY over my limit last night, came home and didn't eat or drink any water at all... My head hurts.
...which I guess means he's on his way out, more than likely. Dying; I should probably say the word...he's fuckin' dying.
That's bringing up emotions I didn't know I was capable of. I guess I love my Grampa Tony; I always just sorta thought of him as just this guy, yanno? I didn't grow up in one of those families where the relatives lived close to us and we saw them all the time; my family was spread out all over the damn place...I kinna grew a bit detached from them. Or so I thought, anyway. So I guess I'm a little surprised by how this is hitting me. Hrm. Odd.
I need food. And water. I went WAY over my limit last night, came home and didn't eat or drink any water at all... My head hurts.