my current situation
this is the start of my electrical diary. i have to started 'cos normally i really don't have time for this kind of stuff and now i have to get a good start so that i could maybe succeed better in writing this.
i wish i could write all the thoughts in my head, all the secret ones too but i won't. there's stuff i can't talk to anyone. i've always though i'm a very open person as i usually am, but i've come to realize that i still have secrets of my own. i think everybody does. so i just basically try to comment everyday life or everyday miracles like a said to Jay in the beginning. maybe there's something interesting in the usual stuff that happens like ... every now and then.
oops, and then i have to forgive if i sometimes fail to express myself properly in english. i'm quite fluent but of course i'm not that good than in my native, so i sometimes can't explain myself. i hope i'll get better.. :(
i'm at work at the moment. i have this summer job for two weeks where i just hang around on duty with not that much to do really. that's why i manage to get started all these conversations with ppl and write diary and everything. next friday will be my last day here so after that my future as an livejournal artist will be unclear.. i hope i can still drop a line or two sometimes.
my husbands brother came back from France yesterday, it was so much fun! he had been there for over two months and i missed him maybe more than i've realized. when i met my hb he used to live with this brother, so for a while all three of us use to live in the same apartment, so he knows me quite well. i enjoy that he's just around, we don't have to do anything special or even talk, he's just there. and he gives room to my ordinarity, i'm just too tired to talk sometimes.
i hope i'm not too tired to make dinner tonight. i've looked forward to it, i love to cook, but usually you just don't have time for all of this. i like to make a good meal to Miika (and grow his belly at the same time, you can't help it) and myself.
sometimes i feel myself older... nowadays you just can't eat everything you want without consequences as i used to do as a teen. i just recall nostalgic of those days i could fit like in those tiny pants that they sell in stores for teenagers. but you just can't help it, your hip and buttocks just get wider after you get older.. i have very good days with this and very very bad days also. but of course i know deep inside that it doesn't matter if i weight like 6-7 extra kg's i'm still loved as who i am. we women just tend to be hysterical with this thing. sometimes i'm sooo happy i'm not a single anymore, it would be so much harder for me to except these facts.
my enthusiasm for bjork has grown a lot during the past year, especially this summer. i hope i'll get to one of her concerts soon again. Miika already promised me he would take care of that when she tours again in Europe :D i'm so happy :D Miika is also working on this unofficial remix of one of her songs and maybe if they can't use the original vocals (which is the most possible situation) i can try to sing the vocals for them. i hope i will get a chance. these tings just usually don't tend to go the way i secretly hope they will, although Miika knows i would love to take this opportunity!
i wish i could write all the thoughts in my head, all the secret ones too but i won't. there's stuff i can't talk to anyone. i've always though i'm a very open person as i usually am, but i've come to realize that i still have secrets of my own. i think everybody does. so i just basically try to comment everyday life or everyday miracles like a said to Jay in the beginning. maybe there's something interesting in the usual stuff that happens like ... every now and then.
oops, and then i have to forgive if i sometimes fail to express myself properly in english. i'm quite fluent but of course i'm not that good than in my native, so i sometimes can't explain myself. i hope i'll get better.. :(
i'm at work at the moment. i have this summer job for two weeks where i just hang around on duty with not that much to do really. that's why i manage to get started all these conversations with ppl and write diary and everything. next friday will be my last day here so after that my future as an livejournal artist will be unclear.. i hope i can still drop a line or two sometimes.
my husbands brother came back from France yesterday, it was so much fun! he had been there for over two months and i missed him maybe more than i've realized. when i met my hb he used to live with this brother, so for a while all three of us use to live in the same apartment, so he knows me quite well. i enjoy that he's just around, we don't have to do anything special or even talk, he's just there. and he gives room to my ordinarity, i'm just too tired to talk sometimes.
i hope i'm not too tired to make dinner tonight. i've looked forward to it, i love to cook, but usually you just don't have time for all of this. i like to make a good meal to Miika (and grow his belly at the same time, you can't help it) and myself.
sometimes i feel myself older... nowadays you just can't eat everything you want without consequences as i used to do as a teen. i just recall nostalgic of those days i could fit like in those tiny pants that they sell in stores for teenagers. but you just can't help it, your hip and buttocks just get wider after you get older.. i have very good days with this and very very bad days also. but of course i know deep inside that it doesn't matter if i weight like 6-7 extra kg's i'm still loved as who i am. we women just tend to be hysterical with this thing. sometimes i'm sooo happy i'm not a single anymore, it would be so much harder for me to except these facts.
my enthusiasm for bjork has grown a lot during the past year, especially this summer. i hope i'll get to one of her concerts soon again. Miika already promised me he would take care of that when she tours again in Europe :D i'm so happy :D Miika is also working on this unofficial remix of one of her songs and maybe if they can't use the original vocals (which is the most possible situation) i can try to sing the vocals for them. i hope i will get a chance. these tings just usually don't tend to go the way i secretly hope they will, although Miika knows i would love to take this opportunity!