decisions... decisions...
When it rains, it pours...
Huh?!
Its not even raining hard here though, but circumstances requiring me to make decisions are...
Just this week, one manager made me realized that in my current work, you are only needed when they want something from you. Another manager made me furious during my leave and even said thing which I shouldn’t be hearing as a professional and had not even considered my sided why I am not answering her calls (I left my phone for Pete’s sake, how can I answer her right away?). She even texted not so delightful words. There are some who doesn’t have concerns at all. But the most highlighted part of my “encounters with the managers” experience was when I finally told my decision to this manager.
“Since 2011 busy season is coming, and as you know, you are my first choice to handle ‘name of client’, are you still gonna be with the firm until next busy season?” she asked, only two of us in the conference area.
“I’m afraid I won’t accept it anymore and you should consider choosing another who’ll handle it.” Just like that I’ve turned down probably the biggest client (in terms of assets) that our firm have.
There are several minutes of conversation thereafter about finding work that I really want and the benefits of me staying in my current work and the opportunities I could get if I am going to handle that account. It’s not that I don’t want to be honest with them but for professionalism and to not create further complication, I didn’t mentioned one by one all the nasty things i’ve experienced during my supervisorial days (both with superior and clients).
And to whom the account was transferred, I’m terribly sorry.. m(_ _)m
I was also surprised on how things happened after that. A whirlwind of decision-making, that is.
I finally activated my accounts in jobfinding websites since I’m already determined to resign, clicked some vacancies that I find fitting to my interest, expertise, experience and expected benefits. Then, they inform me on these dates for interview. I was so overwhelmed with the other one that I went to because I have gone through the entires series of interviews in a day and then there is already a job offer with the position higher that what I’m applying for. They already discussed most of the benefits and the work to be done! Decisions... Decisions...
Well, as of today, I haven’t decided on the date to be used on my ‘omoikiri no tegami’. I want to settle everything that I want to settle first... Hopefully, I could decide the soonest!