I dimly realized at some point that one option would be confessing to my project advisor that dealing with three, even two, novels was too much over the span of a week, especially when I had other concerns (such as cover letters, a test, & other job-hunting-related activities - oh, & trying to retain my sanity, too). But I would rather be able to offer him something instead and show him that I care about this project. Maybe even if I stay up all night reading over the next two days, I won't have something to say, but I think I will. At least I'll have fought with these novels. In a way, it seems laughable that I'm trying to wring meaning from every word, that I struggle to decide which words to look up, what to keep in my consciousness, what to let go of, but I want this!
I've started reading from the beginning again while underlining & circling & drawing emphatic asteriks in pencil, typing out notes, and selectively jotting down words to look up. My pace is horrifically slow.
Wah. Going to bed soon if I'm not focusing that well (it's almost 4!).
I'm studying outside of my apartment tomorrow - I'm guessing at the cafe or even - yes - the library if all else fails. As an adult, I don't really like libraries. They're too quiet, and it makes me feel whiny rather than studious. In any case, I pinned down another student for moral support. I've been cooped up in my apartment for too long and am starting to feel like some sort of human slug - it's gross, and I need company, too. Financially, things are not going well (because I need to learn to manage my money), so I probably won't be going out to dinner with people that often this month, but studying! I've been looking for a good solution for awhile now, and this is a super way to bond with people without spending too much money!
A couple days ago, I discovered
Toppo. It's a snack that's basically pretzel sticks with yummy filling inside. I recommend the new 塩キャラメルトッポ (Salty Caramel Toppo) because the combination of sweet & salty is really yummy!