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tickticktick almost time to leave chicago. i can't believe it's been three months. i guess i should be used to it now, since i haven't been in any one place for more than four months for the last year and a half.
graham is already gone. he feels like a ghost. i can hear him walking upstairs, i can feel him in the night. i can smell him.
almost as much as graham, i'm going to miss having family. it's going to be such a disappointment to have to go back to my real one.
but really, i'm doing okay.
and in three days, i'll be in portland. i've been reading 'fugitives and refugees' in an effort to get myself pumped up about it.
i've decided not to work at NATA this time. which means that these two and a half weeks will be the longest period of time i've spent in portland not working since i was about fifteen.
maybe i'll get back to packing. hopefully i'll see some of you in the next couple of weeks.
graham is already gone. he feels like a ghost. i can hear him walking upstairs, i can feel him in the night. i can smell him.
almost as much as graham, i'm going to miss having family. it's going to be such a disappointment to have to go back to my real one.
but really, i'm doing okay.
and in three days, i'll be in portland. i've been reading 'fugitives and refugees' in an effort to get myself pumped up about it.
i've decided not to work at NATA this time. which means that these two and a half weeks will be the longest period of time i've spent in portland not working since i was about fifteen.
maybe i'll get back to packing. hopefully i'll see some of you in the next couple of weeks.