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Weird rough day.
I feel like I could have been a better:
Wife,
Mother,
and
Friend.
I need to learn patience.
I need to learn flexibility.
I need to not put so much thinking into "later" and enjoy the now.
I need to breath deeper.
Babe is away for a show in MNTRL making today crunched for time. Crunched for patience and understanding and flexibility.
And bebe was so wired. I know he is wonderful and beautiful- but can we all be entitled to loose it once and a while?
Finally bebe fell asleep while hearing me read aloud the Jungle Book- actual story, it is surprisingly full of bargaining and sacrifice.
Could learn a thing or two from it.
Again, I am cold and selfish and hatefilled.
Too mean. Too into "me"...
There is too much ketchup on my mac'n'cheese.
And I am thinking about dropping this semester's course. I am too stressed about this going back to work thing, family thing, book thing, (thats a not worth using excuse)... mostly it is the going back to work. And I got a not too decent grade on the first assignment, another due this week- I haven't even bothered looking into.
I don't want to do it. I have 3 years to do 6 courses. I can take it again. I feel so hollow and stupid about this decision... I don't want to do it- YOU CAN'T MAKE ME.
bad decision making process?
I never learn.
Arc
I feel like I could have been a better:
Wife,
Mother,
and
Friend.
I need to learn patience.
I need to learn flexibility.
I need to not put so much thinking into "later" and enjoy the now.
I need to breath deeper.
Babe is away for a show in MNTRL making today crunched for time. Crunched for patience and understanding and flexibility.
And bebe was so wired. I know he is wonderful and beautiful- but can we all be entitled to loose it once and a while?
Finally bebe fell asleep while hearing me read aloud the Jungle Book- actual story, it is surprisingly full of bargaining and sacrifice.
Could learn a thing or two from it.
Again, I am cold and selfish and hatefilled.
Too mean. Too into "me"...
There is too much ketchup on my mac'n'cheese.
And I am thinking about dropping this semester's course. I am too stressed about this going back to work thing, family thing, book thing, (thats a not worth using excuse)... mostly it is the going back to work. And I got a not too decent grade on the first assignment, another due this week- I haven't even bothered looking into.
I don't want to do it. I have 3 years to do 6 courses. I can take it again. I feel so hollow and stupid about this decision... I don't want to do it- YOU CAN'T MAKE ME.
bad decision making process?
I never learn.
Arc