Victory
We are never completely happy, because that would be insane. We are never truly sorrowful, because there is much to rejoice about. We are never utterly lost, because we find ways to carry on. Despite ourselves. The things we have learnt to stand for, like stilt houses on muddy ground. This has been a year of tearing it all down.
I have enjoyed it, and I have loathed it. I wish for all I love the very best that life can offer. And for myself, a truly necessary, shattering change. I am proud of what I have made of myself; more so for the transformations that have taken place. A few bastions remain, but I now have the power to take one of them down.
As of 2008, in a few hours time, I will give up my last cigerette forever more. You realise what it takes to make that statement. That if, in future, you see me puffing on a stick, you will think me a fool, despite my wry self-deprecative remark of: " what was I thinking? "
Yes. What was I thinking. It's time to move on. The monster is all in the mind, so no need to wish me luck. The battle has already been won. Have a beautiful, wonderful year. I know I will.
I have enjoyed it, and I have loathed it. I wish for all I love the very best that life can offer. And for myself, a truly necessary, shattering change. I am proud of what I have made of myself; more so for the transformations that have taken place. A few bastions remain, but I now have the power to take one of them down.
As of 2008, in a few hours time, I will give up my last cigerette forever more. You realise what it takes to make that statement. That if, in future, you see me puffing on a stick, you will think me a fool, despite my wry self-deprecative remark of: " what was I thinking? "
Yes. What was I thinking. It's time to move on. The monster is all in the mind, so no need to wish me luck. The battle has already been won. Have a beautiful, wonderful year. I know I will.