Tamer the dog update + after surgery pic
So, yesterday Tamer got surgery to remove that tumor he had near his butt. The surgery itself went well, it was done in an hour and today he was feeling perfectly normal apart from being incredibly temperamental and mad which isn't cause he has pain because he has no pain ,it's cause he has one of those collar thingies that keeps him from reaching around to mess with the bandages and I believe he was probably very annoyed and anxious over everything that happened in the past 2 days. The surgery will heal , he's in no pain because the doctor gives him a very cool painkiller that lasts 24 hours and takes all the pain away, he's eating just fine (well, mom has to feed him and his diet is made of fibers so he doesn't get constipated but he has appetite and all) . Of course, the problem is what type of tumor that was because it could all be a passing thing or it could be deadly and the doctor can't know just from seeing it, he things it's more likely for it to be the ok kind but we can't know for sure until the test is done.
Yeah, in the past few days I've been feeling really alone and sad and the traumas of my dad and grandpa dying came back and 2 things become more and more obvious : 1. me and my mom are completely and utterly alone and emotionally there's no one to help us ,lessen the burden because we both have our issues so while we're together we're also alone in whatever we feel, it's not fair to put my burdens on her and vice-versa and there's just no one else there when you need someone.
2. whenever you care about something or someone chances are it will end up hurting u. Sure, this is stupid to say after all this, Tamer is just a dog and he's getting old and it can very well be there's nothing wrong with him anymore in the first place but I don't know, it's just hard to lose things and people and I wish for once my feelings for someone would bring me some stability,some comfort.
Oh well, won't bore you with this anymore, no one really cares anyway but I just had to write about it.
Here's Tamer when we went to take him after surgery, he was of course drowsy,sleepy,half sedated .
Yeah, in the past few days I've been feeling really alone and sad and the traumas of my dad and grandpa dying came back and 2 things become more and more obvious : 1. me and my mom are completely and utterly alone and emotionally there's no one to help us ,lessen the burden because we both have our issues so while we're together we're also alone in whatever we feel, it's not fair to put my burdens on her and vice-versa and there's just no one else there when you need someone.
2. whenever you care about something or someone chances are it will end up hurting u. Sure, this is stupid to say after all this, Tamer is just a dog and he's getting old and it can very well be there's nothing wrong with him anymore in the first place but I don't know, it's just hard to lose things and people and I wish for once my feelings for someone would bring me some stability,some comfort.
Oh well, won't bore you with this anymore, no one really cares anyway but I just had to write about it.
Here's Tamer when we went to take him after surgery, he was of course drowsy,sleepy,half sedated .