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I wish he would stop dying. I don't want to be here. I don't want to go to another hospital yet again and have them turn him away. I am tired of listening to him howl in pain all day and all night. I just want to put my clothes on and walk out of the apartment and not look back. This isn't my life. I never want to be with anyone or be responsible for anyone like this. I don't want a partner or children if this is what it entails. I can't stand it. I can't stand him.
I don't wish him dead. But this isn't living. For anyone. I can't stand it.
I don't wish him dead. But this isn't living. For anyone. I can't stand it.