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i don't belong here.
It's something that i want to fight so badly. I do fight it, but how obvious does it all have to be for me to just fucking get it, and do it. family and friends are great, but this place is not for me. The problem with that is:
where do i belong?
where do i belong?
i can't find it. I put my attention out on it. And what i pick up is literally "not here". i make the focus broader and get the same response. broader still, and the same response comes.
so where does that put me? I need to figure this crap out.
My birthday is Sunday. Don't be surprised (or hurt) if i don't call anyone. It doesn't have anything to do with not enjoying your company, i just don't know what is going to happen for my birthday, and i don't want to think about it. I have no high expectations for it, and that's how it will stay. I really don't give a crap this year. let it be. There's always next year, and it'll be here faster than last year.
w.a.y?
- Simon
It's something that i want to fight so badly. I do fight it, but how obvious does it all have to be for me to just fucking get it, and do it. family and friends are great, but this place is not for me. The problem with that is:
where do i belong?
where do i belong?
i can't find it. I put my attention out on it. And what i pick up is literally "not here". i make the focus broader and get the same response. broader still, and the same response comes.
so where does that put me? I need to figure this crap out.
My birthday is Sunday. Don't be surprised (or hurt) if i don't call anyone. It doesn't have anything to do with not enjoying your company, i just don't know what is going to happen for my birthday, and i don't want to think about it. I have no high expectations for it, and that's how it will stay. I really don't give a crap this year. let it be. There's always next year, and it'll be here faster than last year.
w.a.y?
- Simon