I don't want them to be able to catch me
I had a...something...today. Let's call it a revelation. That's too positive of a word, but "epiphany" doesn't work either, and I can't think of anything else to call it. I don't want to explain the revelation itself. It's too personal. Something I saw made me realize the something may have been written by a person I love and miss like fuck. It killed.
I was home alone. I wanted so badly to be a hypocrite and do something stupid, but instead I just jumped up and ran away from it. I ran and ran for ages across all these lonely woods and fields, bare feet and cold wind and freezing skin and all. I wanted everything to disappear. I needed to be blank, and I finally got there. I don't remember running, I don't remember anything. I didn't even realize I was crying until I stopped running.
I felt so untouched. Like no one could catch me, as long as I didn't stop running. But I had to stop in the end. And even then, I still felt numb and blank.
I hadn't run like that in forever. I'd forgotten the feeling of being untouchable and numb and invincible.
I think you made me human.
I was home alone. I wanted so badly to be a hypocrite and do something stupid, but instead I just jumped up and ran away from it. I ran and ran for ages across all these lonely woods and fields, bare feet and cold wind and freezing skin and all. I wanted everything to disappear. I needed to be blank, and I finally got there. I don't remember running, I don't remember anything. I didn't even realize I was crying until I stopped running.
I felt so untouched. Like no one could catch me, as long as I didn't stop running. But I had to stop in the end. And even then, I still felt numb and blank.
I hadn't run like that in forever. I'd forgotten the feeling of being untouchable and numb and invincible.
I think you made me human.