I'm paralyzed...
I'm paralysed and things could change for you as well
you're not so bad off now, you can move anything you need.
I'm not this way because of an emergency I caused
at seventeen a guard perched above the chlorine floor
when I saw a hand raise up from just beneath the air,
a frantic move for help, I made an instant judgment call.
dive- I arced my feet to dive, I broke the elemental line
to save a child. dive- into the shallow floor
the bottom scraped my palms and compressed my spine.
now i'm paralysed while they just hope to make amends
the family and the kid who faked the drowning incident,
i've felt the hand of god and that's the last thing that I felt
at all below my back, i've lost the faith I thought I had...
I was actually hella happy today. I got told today in first hour "One word: Treadmill" and it didn't really phase me. I was happy.
I dunno why I felt so good today, but I did. After school I went out with Family to eat because it was my Dad's birthday and then when I came home I just got really depressed. I think it was because my grandma brought pictures of me from Christmas and I was just very very... ..unhappy with it. I looked terrible. I couldn't imagine how people view me on a daily basis.
and then I got mad at myself for thinking so low of myself.
It's an on-going fight and I doubt It'll be ending any time soon. I do have a few people who have made me realize how much of a good person I am. God I love them. I really do. I wish they knew how much I cared.. or at least showed interest in my caring for them, and didn't see it as being something so Trivial.
I got invited to a party on Friday.. dunno if I'll go. I kinda don't want to because I'm really bad about social situations usually. plus I have my own reasons not to attend if I decide not to.
I wish people called me..
you're not so bad off now, you can move anything you need.
I'm not this way because of an emergency I caused
at seventeen a guard perched above the chlorine floor
when I saw a hand raise up from just beneath the air,
a frantic move for help, I made an instant judgment call.
dive- I arced my feet to dive, I broke the elemental line
to save a child. dive- into the shallow floor
the bottom scraped my palms and compressed my spine.
now i'm paralysed while they just hope to make amends
the family and the kid who faked the drowning incident,
i've felt the hand of god and that's the last thing that I felt
at all below my back, i've lost the faith I thought I had...
I was actually hella happy today. I got told today in first hour "One word: Treadmill" and it didn't really phase me. I was happy.
I dunno why I felt so good today, but I did. After school I went out with Family to eat because it was my Dad's birthday and then when I came home I just got really depressed. I think it was because my grandma brought pictures of me from Christmas and I was just very very... ..unhappy with it. I looked terrible. I couldn't imagine how people view me on a daily basis.
and then I got mad at myself for thinking so low of myself.
It's an on-going fight and I doubt It'll be ending any time soon. I do have a few people who have made me realize how much of a good person I am. God I love them. I really do. I wish they knew how much I cared.. or at least showed interest in my caring for them, and didn't see it as being something so Trivial.
I got invited to a party on Friday.. dunno if I'll go. I kinda don't want to because I'm really bad about social situations usually. plus I have my own reasons not to attend if I decide not to.
I wish people called me..