I think it's time for you to take me out back and shoot me like ol' yeller...
I just saw the new Coheed video on Fuse, Good laugh of the day.
My Bels Palsey is starting to kick in, I am afraid to tell my parents because if i do, I know I wont be able to go out at all this weekend and they will force me to stay in this prison. So I guess I'll just try to hide the fact that I am sick from them. I mean, They know i'm sick, but that it's getting to me this week. And i can already hear what they will say "it's because you were out in the cold at that show last night blah blah blah some other shit blah blah blah" and im really not looking forward to it at all. Right now you are probably asking yourself "what the fuck is bels palsey?!" well, it's a genetic disorder that someone in my family line, way way back decided to bless me with, wait not bless, CURSE me with. The nerve that controls my left facial muscles likes to inflame (swell) and it makes it difficult to move the left side of my face. Oh it's way fucking attractive. It hasnt gotten to the point where my face droops yet. Hopefully it will not get that bad. The last time it did was well over 2 years ago, i just find it difficult to smile right now and I feel that side heavier and harder for me to blink my eye. It really sucks but it is just something I will have to live with. It wont go away. STUPID FUCKING GENETICS!
Anyway- my bels palsey made it interesting to present my project infront of us history today. i slur my words really bad sometimes. please please dont make fun of me. i hate this disorder, i'm not sure if it can be called a disease, but to me, it is an incurable disease. and it doesnt help that the one thing that helps, i am allergic to..along with every else in this fucking world. i think i'm allergic to boys? maybe thats why they all stay away? Oh wait, they must be allergic to me. that's it.
Though there was a hot guy there last night at the show, SO HOT, he even tapped me on my elbow, accidentally on purpose (make sense?) and if i werent so shy around boys, if i werent such an introvert (yeah i'm using my psychology background!) around boys, i'm sure i would have spoken to him. He was hot! Lip Ring, Eye brow piercing...SO SEXIE! I'm in awe of his beauty.. Maybe he will be at the next show? Looks like more HXC for me and K80.. yeah... I'm going to sleep because I havent in the last two days..
LATER LOVERS- Liz
[EDIT: My dad was okay with the palsey.. he went out to buy me some drugs for it.. I guess I wont have to worry that much. But he even noticed with out me saying anything that my face is swollen.. ahh! I look ugly..I'm going to look ugly for Jake Epstein..NOooOOoooOoooO!]
[EDIT II: My mom was okay with me not being well either. I guess there attitudes have changed since the last time this happened. my mom even rubbed my face for me... trying to get some feeling back..that's so sweet! I guess I'm just complaining because this doesnt feel good at all and i'm sorry if you read all of this because i know it's really long today]