..these pictures are all i can feel....
Yet another day goes by. It's the inevidable. Sucks. I've had a really lonely week. scratch that. month. not friends wise, like, I want a relationship already. I've seen/hooked up with (that sounds so skanky, but it's not) a few, but I dont want that anymore. i want a guy..no..I want a man.. "the world is full of guys" I'm tired of being selfish, thinking it's my turn. but it is. Can anyone please find a guy that will be interested in me for more than 2 seconds that i can have an actual RELATIONSHIP with? It makes me a total downer when a guy is only interested in me for those few days and thats all... am I not good enough? is there something wrong with me? i'm so confused. i'm so sad. that sounds so pathetic. i am pathetic. man. Aj and Nicole aren't going out anymore- thats kind of weird..he and i are switching places, he wants to date, i want a relationship. weird. for the longest time it was the other way around.. Nicole really fucked him over. bitch... i can't believe someone would mess with my little brother like that. but it's a huge story..i dont want to get into it, not my business. Uhmm yeah so i'm going to stop now. before my tear comes. I know i'll "find" someone someday..but uhm.. can't i just be found already?! can't i have someone love me. everyone else gets love, i dont. it works that way i guess... i'm out
liz