bettie davis is my hero and no, it is not all about eve
so ok. i just wrote about this on j.herbs' journal, but i have more to do for school in the next..oh MONTH than I've had in a long time. also, this is not just a wussy paper here a personal reflection there, it's massive thesis shit that I've been putting off. honestly though, i think my plan can work ONLY if executed exactly as planned. I can't verge from the set guidelines for so much as one day or I'm seriously screwed.
All this is despite the fact that i have messed up my calendar for finishing my incompletes (again) and I'm afraid that I'll be working on them during spring break. this would be ok if i didn't have to write most of my thesis over break. can i do both? knowing myself as well as I'd like to think that i do now, no. I'll not only be out of town for a few days to visit my parents (during which im sure ill get little to no work done) but I have accelerated derby practices and i think im getting ulcers and i eat too much at night and i have gas and. right. happy.
ok so for tomorrow im turning in my interview assignment as well as my coding assignment. The latter of the two is on time, the other is way late. I'm ok with this point as im happy to be turning it in at all. My only concern now is my lit review. why have i placed this thing on a pillar so far above and beyond me that i cant even begin organizing my research let alone analyzing and drawing conclusions? am i so afraid that I'll misrepresent someone or something that I can't even make basic statements? At this point, yes. I have to get over this within the next few days or my ass is grass.
on the up side, i have been writing creatively again at ridiculously early hours of the morning. ive found that it is easier for me to write slightly delierious or slightly stoned. frees me up. zion here i come. was that problematic? i think so.
oh and to distract myself even further from my work ive been fantasizing of bathroom walls covered in glamour shots of classic hollywood actresses/beauties next to modern fetish models. oo lala. a) i think this could be an interesting critique on beauty, race, femininity etc. and b) it's hot. who wouldnt want to lock eyes with bettie page, darenzia, hedy lamarr, or helen lane while taking a bath???
(how to: stop by poster store on corner and buy glossy photos until my checkbook falls appart. lamanate each photo as i would need to keep them seperate to fit them to different contours of different bathrooms. then? thousands of little sliver tacks? some kind of glue? im renting though..hm). i should stop and go to bed. its 5am..also i havent been sleeping. the end.
All this is despite the fact that i have messed up my calendar for finishing my incompletes (again) and I'm afraid that I'll be working on them during spring break. this would be ok if i didn't have to write most of my thesis over break. can i do both? knowing myself as well as I'd like to think that i do now, no. I'll not only be out of town for a few days to visit my parents (during which im sure ill get little to no work done) but I have accelerated derby practices and i think im getting ulcers and i eat too much at night and i have gas and. right. happy.
ok so for tomorrow im turning in my interview assignment as well as my coding assignment. The latter of the two is on time, the other is way late. I'm ok with this point as im happy to be turning it in at all. My only concern now is my lit review. why have i placed this thing on a pillar so far above and beyond me that i cant even begin organizing my research let alone analyzing and drawing conclusions? am i so afraid that I'll misrepresent someone or something that I can't even make basic statements? At this point, yes. I have to get over this within the next few days or my ass is grass.
on the up side, i have been writing creatively again at ridiculously early hours of the morning. ive found that it is easier for me to write slightly delierious or slightly stoned. frees me up. zion here i come. was that problematic? i think so.
oh and to distract myself even further from my work ive been fantasizing of bathroom walls covered in glamour shots of classic hollywood actresses/beauties next to modern fetish models. oo lala. a) i think this could be an interesting critique on beauty, race, femininity etc. and b) it's hot. who wouldnt want to lock eyes with bettie page, darenzia, hedy lamarr, or helen lane while taking a bath???
(how to: stop by poster store on corner and buy glossy photos until my checkbook falls appart. lamanate each photo as i would need to keep them seperate to fit them to different contours of different bathrooms. then? thousands of little sliver tacks? some kind of glue? im renting though..hm). i should stop and go to bed. its 5am..also i havent been sleeping. the end.