Bad Day Goes Good with Breathing
I think the folks working in the office that's under construction on our floor are trying to kill us. Between dicking with the AC so that it's always either freezing or lava in our office (somehow they have control of it!), dealing with weird noises, or worse, horrible things happening in the bathroom.... it's enough for me to be talking with the facilities guy about WTF YO??
Today, I think was the worst of the worst. At some point, someone decided that they should acid wash the new tile floor - I guess they needed it to look like some old faded jeans from the 80's. Since we have the same ventilation system, that meant we suddenly had AC blowing hyper chlorinated gas straight into our office. This went on for over half an hour. The workers didn't seem to notice the smell. The building facilities workers didn't think it was so bad in our office - meanwhile it smells like a hyper-chlorinated high school pool in our office.
After half an hour of it, I had enough. I went outside for a walk to clear my head - literally - and get some fresh air.
I wandered over to a large tree by the pond behind our office. The pond is home to lots of fish and even at least one alligator. Sandhill cranes have made their home in the upper branches of the tree that drew me, and other birds also call it home. I reached out to touch it and immediately felt the fog from the vapors clearing from my head.
While I stood there, I did some breathwork. At first, just the circulating breath in and out to help move more of the fog from my head. Then I worked a bit with the ocean breath, since I was there at the pond. I did the breathwork that called to me. Even without consciously working with it, I felt the Green Mist start to cause the leaves and grass to shimmer in that special way that it does. This was very interesting to me, because I don't think I've felt it just come forward before without being called using the techniques we've worked with Orion.
I sat with the Tree for a while, feeling it help re-center me and bring me back to a more normal state. It's one of the first times in recent memory that I could really feel the Tree doing working on me -- of course, excluding the times that we have done these workings during Seership. I could feel the roots beneath my feet subtly moving, and while I was there sitting with the tree and feeling its oneness with me, I read Ray's posting on the Seership group asking about if it was possible for the Tree to be viewed as an overlay of a human body. Immediately I got this sort of "but of course" that came through the roots through my root (ha! was sitting on a big root so my root chakra was engaged there). I got this ... feeling? ... Image? .. sorta both? ... of a human sorta Virtruvian Man with the Keys from the Tree laid upon him. The chakras were represented, too, and it really felt that those chakra points lined up with some of the Keys, at least from an UpperWorld/UnderWorld sorta way. The Third Eye and the chakra above it lining up with the Holy Formless Fire... while the Stone maybe be your Root chakra? I felt compelled to comment because the Tree made me do it lol!
After I sat for a bit just breathing with the Tree. And then I stopped to just enjoy being outside and not in the office. While I was sitting there, the wind began to pick up. I had this overwhelming feeling that the Earth was breathing for me, as I had breathed for it earlier. It was very strange, and a bit thrilling, to feel the charge the air had. It wasn't just the wind - it was a breath. It was the Breath of the Earth breathing for me. So. Very. Fucking. Amazing.
Alas, after a bit I had to get back to work. I thanked the Tree, placing my hand on its trunk again. I felt a delicate, but deliberate, push back against the palm of my hand. It was also pretty fucking cool. :)
Luckily, when I got back into the office, the chlorine smell had started to dissipated. But the feelings of being in communion and relationship with the Tree, and having that moment of breathing with and to and receiving FROM the Earth is something that I get to carry with me for a long time.
Today, I think was the worst of the worst. At some point, someone decided that they should acid wash the new tile floor - I guess they needed it to look like some old faded jeans from the 80's. Since we have the same ventilation system, that meant we suddenly had AC blowing hyper chlorinated gas straight into our office. This went on for over half an hour. The workers didn't seem to notice the smell. The building facilities workers didn't think it was so bad in our office - meanwhile it smells like a hyper-chlorinated high school pool in our office.
After half an hour of it, I had enough. I went outside for a walk to clear my head - literally - and get some fresh air.
I wandered over to a large tree by the pond behind our office. The pond is home to lots of fish and even at least one alligator. Sandhill cranes have made their home in the upper branches of the tree that drew me, and other birds also call it home. I reached out to touch it and immediately felt the fog from the vapors clearing from my head.
While I stood there, I did some breathwork. At first, just the circulating breath in and out to help move more of the fog from my head. Then I worked a bit with the ocean breath, since I was there at the pond. I did the breathwork that called to me. Even without consciously working with it, I felt the Green Mist start to cause the leaves and grass to shimmer in that special way that it does. This was very interesting to me, because I don't think I've felt it just come forward before without being called using the techniques we've worked with Orion.
I sat with the Tree for a while, feeling it help re-center me and bring me back to a more normal state. It's one of the first times in recent memory that I could really feel the Tree doing working on me -- of course, excluding the times that we have done these workings during Seership. I could feel the roots beneath my feet subtly moving, and while I was there sitting with the tree and feeling its oneness with me, I read Ray's posting on the Seership group asking about if it was possible for the Tree to be viewed as an overlay of a human body. Immediately I got this sort of "but of course" that came through the roots through my root (ha! was sitting on a big root so my root chakra was engaged there). I got this ... feeling? ... Image? .. sorta both? ... of a human sorta Virtruvian Man with the Keys from the Tree laid upon him. The chakras were represented, too, and it really felt that those chakra points lined up with some of the Keys, at least from an UpperWorld/UnderWorld sorta way. The Third Eye and the chakra above it lining up with the Holy Formless Fire... while the Stone maybe be your Root chakra? I felt compelled to comment because the Tree made me do it lol!
After I sat for a bit just breathing with the Tree. And then I stopped to just enjoy being outside and not in the office. While I was sitting there, the wind began to pick up. I had this overwhelming feeling that the Earth was breathing for me, as I had breathed for it earlier. It was very strange, and a bit thrilling, to feel the charge the air had. It wasn't just the wind - it was a breath. It was the Breath of the Earth breathing for me. So. Very. Fucking. Amazing.
Alas, after a bit I had to get back to work. I thanked the Tree, placing my hand on its trunk again. I felt a delicate, but deliberate, push back against the palm of my hand. It was also pretty fucking cool. :)
Luckily, when I got back into the office, the chlorine smell had started to dissipated. But the feelings of being in communion and relationship with the Tree, and having that moment of breathing with and to and receiving FROM the Earth is something that I get to carry with me for a long time.