- Confused -
Well, i dont rilly feel like telling what i have done because that kind of shit gets old and boring to talk about. I just simply want to put how i am rilly feeling. But the thing is, i dont know how to put it....i mean im not depressed or sad but im not extremely happy. Sometimes i just feel so irritated and i feel just frustrated with people. Maybe its because i'm a real person and im just fed up with fake people and friends who arent rilly friends. I think my real friends are april, cherish, bri, kevin, jerrid and well that might be it but i just cant think right now. Im just so confused on how im feeling at times and it drives me insane...I mean at one point im happy happy happy n the next thing i know im in an arguement with someone about dumb shit. But man ive got so much on my mind and i have sooo much to say. Sometimes i just think about the way things use to be and all that good stuff and it rilly makes me just upset...cuz idk i had fun i guess and ive finally gotten over matthew and all that and it was sooo hard and maybe im not ready for another relationship.... i just feel like i need someone to be with me all the time and so i know there is someone there that i can count on and that loves me back...then again i rillllly like this kid and i know things will work out but whenever i think about teh past i get second thoughts about everything but idk i guess im not goign to break anything up cuz i guess im feeling more on the side that i should be doing this and that things will work out and i will be happy...i guess we will have to wait and see. but i do rilllly like you a whole lot kevin and nothings going to change that. much love man. <3333 : )
Anyway, i am getting so sick of these peoples parents! ahhhh... not mentioning any names but jeezUS...they think im some kind of big druggy n that im a rilly bad person just becuz one little thing happened last friday but im telling you they are all lies. and god it just makes me so mad cuz these people dont know anything about me, what ive gone through, who i am, and why i do the thins i do...so until they do and take the time to actually get to know me...FUCK THEM...im so fucking sick of it and im just fed up with it and dont wanna be invovled in it. They can talk n tell lies to other people all they want but fuck that im not letting that shit bring me down.(yes and i might have to mention that it is rilly fucking childish or over protective..something like that) but whatever they are gay...yah lets just keep our kids away from lisa even thought my kids are hanging out wiht real druggys we just dont know...god when are parents going to realize that DRUGS ARE EVERYWHERE and its not the people they hang out with...your kids make their own desicions so stop blaming other people...fuck i could go on and on but im tired...goodnight
One last thing before i go...i met this Jay kid..hes awesome..i mean hes sexy too i bet hes packin, which he is just ask kevin, and damn that stoner eye is HOTT!
peace niggas
Anyway, i am getting so sick of these peoples parents! ahhhh... not mentioning any names but jeezUS...they think im some kind of big druggy n that im a rilly bad person just becuz one little thing happened last friday but im telling you they are all lies. and god it just makes me so mad cuz these people dont know anything about me, what ive gone through, who i am, and why i do the thins i do...so until they do and take the time to actually get to know me...FUCK THEM...im so fucking sick of it and im just fed up with it and dont wanna be invovled in it. They can talk n tell lies to other people all they want but fuck that im not letting that shit bring me down.(yes and i might have to mention that it is rilly fucking childish or over protective..something like that) but whatever they are gay...yah lets just keep our kids away from lisa even thought my kids are hanging out wiht real druggys we just dont know...god when are parents going to realize that DRUGS ARE EVERYWHERE and its not the people they hang out with...your kids make their own desicions so stop blaming other people...fuck i could go on and on but im tired...goodnight
One last thing before i go...i met this Jay kid..hes awesome..i mean hes sexy too i bet hes packin, which he is just ask kevin, and damn that stoner eye is HOTT!
peace niggas