Tsubasa's Chii, Fai & Ashura along with some xxxHOLic & BitTorrent files
Sometimes you just can't help feel a little off-kilter -- hence the choice in icon. I just finished uploading a ton of icons--up to the max actually--so I am going to see how they work as far as choices and then either decide to keep them all or switch them out.
I also finished downloading the "Tsubasa Chronicle Original Soundtrack - Future Soundscape I" and unzipped all the files--I absolutely Love it!! I am definitely going to buy it and I think "Future Soundscape II" too.
I am definitely on a Tsubasa kick right now--not sure why, but it is the current obsession--so everything I've done over the last week has been Tsubasa related. Well, that and my classes. So I was on one of the Tsubasa communities that I'm a part of--not sure which one right now though--ah, found it: tsubasa_media and I saw everybody talking about the most recent episodes of TRC and I was like: Huh? So I have to investigate I followed one of the links--it happened to be the one for Episode 19--and found where all the episodes are hosted. Here's the address:
http://a.scarywater.net/live-evil/
These are Torrent files that use a BitTorrent client to download. Right now I am using the original BitTorrent which is great if you only want to download one torrent file at a time, which is what I started at. But now I find that I want to be able to download multiple files at once, so I am going to download Azureus which uses Java software and can do multiple downloads. I am not going to download it right now because I am currently downloading a huge torrent file--all 12 Loveless episodes--and I don't want to interrupt it by installing new software. With my luck with downloads and software, who knows what I would be able to screw up. Since I am in no big hurry currently to download more torrents, it's cool that I wait.
I have found that patience is a wonderful virtue to have in abundance--I used to be SO impatient, always wanting to do things now and get there now--a symptom of my mania. But my depression slowed me way down and I have never been able to find the motivation to return to that fast-paced living. It is a whole hell-of-a-lot less stressful to be patient and therefore, because I am not getting irritated by not being able to do what I want right now, I find my self in much less cranky moods.
Today I am cranky because I'm tired and slept badly; my left arm has been giving me a lot of problems recently--in the last two weeks--so I have to take care not to sleep on my left side, and left arm, to keep as much feeling in it as possible. The fingertips in my left hand have been going numb--I can't tell if it is from using the computer for too long are because I am somehow pinching my nerve in my left arm. If it is the nerve in the arm, I think it is caused by sleeping on my left side all night for a number of years.
Oh, I started this entry to write down some of my random thoughts--I wrote them in my notebook to make sure I didn't forget it, so now I am transferring them here.
Back to Tsubasa: I was reading Tsubasa fanfics yesterday and I noticed something that has become a pattern in some of the stories I read. It has to do with Chii, Fai, and Ashura waking up. Almost all the fics I have read with Ashura waking up has him destroying Chii, either for trying to stop him or just because she is covering the pool he is sleeping in and he rips through her when he escapes the pool. I find both those reasons illogical along with the act of Ashura destroying Chii being equally illogical.
Here's why: Fai told Chii exactly, "I want you to tell me if the King awakens" (pg. 81, Tsubasa RESERVoir CHRoNiCLE Vol. 1; Del Rey, 2004) and then Fai turns her into that dome-like thing--a canopy maybe?--to cover the pool.
But, if you look at the canopy's shape and where Fai is standing when he wishes Ashura good dreams, you'll see that there is a gap in the canopy in that area in front of where Fai is standing. So Fai, from where he was standing when he wished his Ou-sama to have good dreams, can see straight down into the bottom of the pool where Ashura is.
~&~
So when Ashura wakes up, which he eventually will if Fai's actions are indicator, and manages not to drown getting out of his coffin and to the top of the pool, he can get out of the pool without disturbing the canopy in that section that Fai left empty. And, really, is someone who was put into a magically induced coma--which is what I get Fai did to him--going to wake up, alert, and then randomly decide that the covering to of the pool he was imprisoned in is a spy Fai left and needs to be destroyed? No. I bet Ashura doesn't even take a second look at Chii when he wakes up, only seeing the canopy for what Fai wanted to to appear to be: a covering Fai put over his King's prison.
Really, Fai's actions are ingenious: by changing Chii into another form, it makes it look like Chii left with Fai, meaning that Ashura will think that there is no one there when he wakes, specifically no one to tell Fai that his King has awoken. It gives Ashura a false-sense of security, thinking that he is the only being that knows he has woken up, which will, in turn, make it easier for Chii to tell Fai that Ashura has woken. If no one is in the Castle to contact Fai, then there is no need to put up any wards to stop outside communication or even a reason to "lock up" the castle to keep people in or out.
Also, Chii is not going to try and stop Ashura-ou from leaving. She was given one specific instruction: "...tell me if the King awakens" and nothing else. From the limited exposure we were given to Chii before she was turned into an awning, her intelligence doesn't come off too highly, which makes perfect sense because she is a construct that Fai built. Constructs are not known, or really even built, for their independent thinking. If you are going to make yourself an assistant, you want it to do what you say, not argue with you over the merits of this action over that one, which means that independent thinking is a 'no' as a personality trait.
Similar constructs can be seen in xxxHOLic: Maru-dashi and Moro-dashi are their full names--their names are a joke in Japanese as both words, if the names are un-hyphenated and shmooshed together, mean "exposing yourself in public" - so they are usually called just Maru and Moro and were both created by Yuuko. They both display little independent thinking (I was going to say "no independent thinking," but as a I was reading through Vol. 1, I found a place where they asked a logical question before Yuuko did--when Watanuki is trying to leave Yuuko's parlor, storming to the door, the 'children' ~ and I call them that only because they are child-size ~ ask--"Are you going home?" so I will give them credit for a little independent thought.) insomuch as most of the talking they do is to repeat the last phrase Yuuko--sometimes Watanuki too--says, in-sync.
Yuuko also makes a very revealing comment about Maru and Moro: "They have no souls." (pg. 18, xxxHOLic Vol. 2; Del Rey, 2004) And since Fai made Chii the same way, or at least in a similar way, Yuuko made Maru and Moro, then it is logical that Chii is also lacking a soul. (Errrr, not sure where I was going with this non-soul point--oh, there is my train of thought.)
Now, where am I going with this? The whole 'having no soul thing' has to do with Ashura being able to recognize Chii in her canopy form. Since Chii doesn't have a soul, when she is changed into another form--such as the canopy--there is really nothing to distinguish the "canopy Chii" from a canopy that Fai would create with his magic for the sole purpose of covering the pool. So there is no reason for Ashura to suspect that the canopy is anything other than a canopy and therefore no reason for him to destroy the canopy. I bet that Ashura will think that the canopy is kind-of "sweet" for Fai to have put over the pool to help "protect" his sleeping king when Fai was the one to cause the king to be sleeping in the first place.
Oh, I was also using Maru and Moro as examples of how independent of thinkers constructs are--they can function on their own, doing what they were told to do, as long as they are given a clear order of what they are to do. This is what Maru and Moro do and nothing more, so I'm concluding that Chii will act in a similar manner--she will carry out her order as best she can and do just that, nothing more and nothing less. So Chii will tell Fai when Ashura-ou awakens, not try to stop Ashura from waking up or stop him from leaving the castle because those are both things she was not told to do. Ashura has no reason to destroy her, so she will most likely survive his awakening, as long as she uses the little independent thought process she was given which will tell her to not give the king any reason to destroy her, and be able to give Fai the message.
How Chii will deliver her message?--I have no idea, but I am sure that Fai was smart enough to install Chii with a way to contact him when he made her, so she should be able to use that method to tell Fai when Ashura-ou wakes up.
I've also been on inking a Dragon Knights drawing to paint and am almost done. I'll scan it in as soon as I am finished.
I also finished downloading the "Tsubasa Chronicle Original Soundtrack - Future Soundscape I" and unzipped all the files--I absolutely Love it!! I am definitely going to buy it and I think "Future Soundscape II" too.
I am definitely on a Tsubasa kick right now--not sure why, but it is the current obsession--so everything I've done over the last week has been Tsubasa related. Well, that and my classes. So I was on one of the Tsubasa communities that I'm a part of--not sure which one right now though--ah, found it: tsubasa_media and I saw everybody talking about the most recent episodes of TRC and I was like: Huh? So I have to investigate I followed one of the links--it happened to be the one for Episode 19--and found where all the episodes are hosted. Here's the address:
http://a.scarywater.net/live-evil/
These are Torrent files that use a BitTorrent client to download. Right now I am using the original BitTorrent which is great if you only want to download one torrent file at a time, which is what I started at. But now I find that I want to be able to download multiple files at once, so I am going to download Azureus which uses Java software and can do multiple downloads. I am not going to download it right now because I am currently downloading a huge torrent file--all 12 Loveless episodes--and I don't want to interrupt it by installing new software. With my luck with downloads and software, who knows what I would be able to screw up. Since I am in no big hurry currently to download more torrents, it's cool that I wait.
I have found that patience is a wonderful virtue to have in abundance--I used to be SO impatient, always wanting to do things now and get there now--a symptom of my mania. But my depression slowed me way down and I have never been able to find the motivation to return to that fast-paced living. It is a whole hell-of-a-lot less stressful to be patient and therefore, because I am not getting irritated by not being able to do what I want right now, I find my self in much less cranky moods.
Today I am cranky because I'm tired and slept badly; my left arm has been giving me a lot of problems recently--in the last two weeks--so I have to take care not to sleep on my left side, and left arm, to keep as much feeling in it as possible. The fingertips in my left hand have been going numb--I can't tell if it is from using the computer for too long are because I am somehow pinching my nerve in my left arm. If it is the nerve in the arm, I think it is caused by sleeping on my left side all night for a number of years.
Oh, I started this entry to write down some of my random thoughts--I wrote them in my notebook to make sure I didn't forget it, so now I am transferring them here.
Back to Tsubasa: I was reading Tsubasa fanfics yesterday and I noticed something that has become a pattern in some of the stories I read. It has to do with Chii, Fai, and Ashura waking up. Almost all the fics I have read with Ashura waking up has him destroying Chii, either for trying to stop him or just because she is covering the pool he is sleeping in and he rips through her when he escapes the pool. I find both those reasons illogical along with the act of Ashura destroying Chii being equally illogical.
Here's why: Fai told Chii exactly, "I want you to tell me if the King awakens" (pg. 81, Tsubasa RESERVoir CHRoNiCLE Vol. 1; Del Rey, 2004) and then Fai turns her into that dome-like thing--a canopy maybe?--to cover the pool.
But, if you look at the canopy's shape and where Fai is standing when he wishes Ashura good dreams, you'll see that there is a gap in the canopy in that area in front of where Fai is standing. So Fai, from where he was standing when he wished his Ou-sama to have good dreams, can see straight down into the bottom of the pool where Ashura is.
~&~
So when Ashura wakes up, which he eventually will if Fai's actions are indicator, and manages not to drown getting out of his coffin and to the top of the pool, he can get out of the pool without disturbing the canopy in that section that Fai left empty. And, really, is someone who was put into a magically induced coma--which is what I get Fai did to him--going to wake up, alert, and then randomly decide that the covering to of the pool he was imprisoned in is a spy Fai left and needs to be destroyed? No. I bet Ashura doesn't even take a second look at Chii when he wakes up, only seeing the canopy for what Fai wanted to to appear to be: a covering Fai put over his King's prison.
Really, Fai's actions are ingenious: by changing Chii into another form, it makes it look like Chii left with Fai, meaning that Ashura will think that there is no one there when he wakes, specifically no one to tell Fai that his King has awoken. It gives Ashura a false-sense of security, thinking that he is the only being that knows he has woken up, which will, in turn, make it easier for Chii to tell Fai that Ashura has woken. If no one is in the Castle to contact Fai, then there is no need to put up any wards to stop outside communication or even a reason to "lock up" the castle to keep people in or out.
Also, Chii is not going to try and stop Ashura-ou from leaving. She was given one specific instruction: "...tell me if the King awakens" and nothing else. From the limited exposure we were given to Chii before she was turned into an awning, her intelligence doesn't come off too highly, which makes perfect sense because she is a construct that Fai built. Constructs are not known, or really even built, for their independent thinking. If you are going to make yourself an assistant, you want it to do what you say, not argue with you over the merits of this action over that one, which means that independent thinking is a 'no' as a personality trait.
Similar constructs can be seen in xxxHOLic: Maru-dashi and Moro-dashi are their full names--their names are a joke in Japanese as both words, if the names are un-hyphenated and shmooshed together, mean "exposing yourself in public" - so they are usually called just Maru and Moro and were both created by Yuuko. They both display little independent thinking (I was going to say "no independent thinking," but as a I was reading through Vol. 1, I found a place where they asked a logical question before Yuuko did--when Watanuki is trying to leave Yuuko's parlor, storming to the door, the 'children' ~ and I call them that only because they are child-size ~ ask--"Are you going home?" so I will give them credit for a little independent thought.) insomuch as most of the talking they do is to repeat the last phrase Yuuko--sometimes Watanuki too--says, in-sync.
Yuuko also makes a very revealing comment about Maru and Moro: "They have no souls." (pg. 18, xxxHOLic Vol. 2; Del Rey, 2004) And since Fai made Chii the same way, or at least in a similar way, Yuuko made Maru and Moro, then it is logical that Chii is also lacking a soul. (Errrr, not sure where I was going with this non-soul point--oh, there is my train of thought.)
Now, where am I going with this? The whole 'having no soul thing' has to do with Ashura being able to recognize Chii in her canopy form. Since Chii doesn't have a soul, when she is changed into another form--such as the canopy--there is really nothing to distinguish the "canopy Chii" from a canopy that Fai would create with his magic for the sole purpose of covering the pool. So there is no reason for Ashura to suspect that the canopy is anything other than a canopy and therefore no reason for him to destroy the canopy. I bet that Ashura will think that the canopy is kind-of "sweet" for Fai to have put over the pool to help "protect" his sleeping king when Fai was the one to cause the king to be sleeping in the first place.
Oh, I was also using Maru and Moro as examples of how independent of thinkers constructs are--they can function on their own, doing what they were told to do, as long as they are given a clear order of what they are to do. This is what Maru and Moro do and nothing more, so I'm concluding that Chii will act in a similar manner--she will carry out her order as best she can and do just that, nothing more and nothing less. So Chii will tell Fai when Ashura-ou awakens, not try to stop Ashura from waking up or stop him from leaving the castle because those are both things she was not told to do. Ashura has no reason to destroy her, so she will most likely survive his awakening, as long as she uses the little independent thought process she was given which will tell her to not give the king any reason to destroy her, and be able to give Fai the message.
How Chii will deliver her message?--I have no idea, but I am sure that Fai was smart enough to install Chii with a way to contact him when he made her, so she should be able to use that method to tell Fai when Ashura-ou wakes up.
I've also been on inking a Dragon Knights drawing to paint and am almost done. I'll scan it in as soon as I am finished.