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Sometimes there are days when I'd better speak only English ))
Not French or some other language I can lear, Japanese perhaps, even if I learn them perfectly, but English. It's easier for me to think in English, sometimes easier than in Russian.
I was even writing poems )) But I think they're rather...something between stupid and philosophical. That usually happens with romantic...well...teenagers than, my last poem was at the age of...15 maybe...
That's difficult to write poems because in my case they usually have one "direction of thoughts". I can't write about real things, real life, that's always about things you'll never get...mystic, strange, some of that sort so poems contain a big part of sadness.
I always loved gothic castles, ruins, old cities and beleived in mystical things. When I think about all this I have a feeling that there's something more than just humanity or Earth itself. It's curious to think that there is a kind of system of living in general which we just can't and musn't understand. In any case it's very sad to live just because it happened one day that life was born because of only chemical reactions.
I was also learning Elvish (Lord of the Rings consequence), I still keep an english "coursebook", I even have a dictionary ))...I can't say I'm done with it but as usual I have plenty of other things. It's very interesting to know something special that others don't. Moreover unknown languages sound more beautiful than when you speak them. And calligraphy is also very very beautiful. There were days I didn't like to talk about it because it sounded...crazy or funny, I don't know. But actually from a logical point of view everything we have was created by human, and languages we speek too so why not. If Elvish was comfortable in common life it could become one of them.
What's also interesting is how the Big Bang happened. Being more specific - where? In fact this Big Bang meant the birth of our Universe with milliards of galaxies. So it's logical to think that there are other Universes which were born the same way. But the next question is then "where did that all happen"? The primary material must have been situated somewhere...in some other material?. So what's that, Emptyness? In its turn it must be also situated somewhere or it's eternal. I do think so. But I'm not really sure that we'll be able to understand the answer someday...if it exists )) Perhaps in other 2000 years ))
I also think that God exists. Maybe it's better to say that force which we call God...or Destiny. When this force saves us from something or punishes au contrary. I don't believe it rules our lives, we have our choices. Miracles happen, we just don't understand how or don't look attentiviley enough. I can't say I'm so much religious, I don't go to churches or smth else but I like being there because there I always have a feeling as my soul rests, it's very calm there. I think being religious and have faith are different things. They say 95% of our brain are not in use so how we can actually dare to state that there's nothing else around us...
Not French or some other language I can lear, Japanese perhaps, even if I learn them perfectly, but English. It's easier for me to think in English, sometimes easier than in Russian.
I was even writing poems )) But I think they're rather...something between stupid and philosophical. That usually happens with romantic...well...teenagers than, my last poem was at the age of...15 maybe...
That's difficult to write poems because in my case they usually have one "direction of thoughts". I can't write about real things, real life, that's always about things you'll never get...mystic, strange, some of that sort so poems contain a big part of sadness.
I always loved gothic castles, ruins, old cities and beleived in mystical things. When I think about all this I have a feeling that there's something more than just humanity or Earth itself. It's curious to think that there is a kind of system of living in general which we just can't and musn't understand. In any case it's very sad to live just because it happened one day that life was born because of only chemical reactions.
I was also learning Elvish (Lord of the Rings consequence), I still keep an english "coursebook", I even have a dictionary ))...I can't say I'm done with it but as usual I have plenty of other things. It's very interesting to know something special that others don't. Moreover unknown languages sound more beautiful than when you speak them. And calligraphy is also very very beautiful. There were days I didn't like to talk about it because it sounded...crazy or funny, I don't know. But actually from a logical point of view everything we have was created by human, and languages we speek too so why not. If Elvish was comfortable in common life it could become one of them.
What's also interesting is how the Big Bang happened. Being more specific - where? In fact this Big Bang meant the birth of our Universe with milliards of galaxies. So it's logical to think that there are other Universes which were born the same way. But the next question is then "where did that all happen"? The primary material must have been situated somewhere...in some other material?. So what's that, Emptyness? In its turn it must be also situated somewhere or it's eternal. I do think so. But I'm not really sure that we'll be able to understand the answer someday...if it exists )) Perhaps in other 2000 years ))
I also think that God exists. Maybe it's better to say that force which we call God...or Destiny. When this force saves us from something or punishes au contrary. I don't believe it rules our lives, we have our choices. Miracles happen, we just don't understand how or don't look attentiviley enough. I can't say I'm so much religious, I don't go to churches or smth else but I like being there because there I always have a feeling as my soul rests, it's very calm there. I think being religious and have faith are different things. They say 95% of our brain are not in use so how we can actually dare to state that there's nothing else around us...