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i know i am not perfect and often times i wish i were but i know ive got to deal with what ive got and work for what i want which unfortunatly doesnt come easy. my family is probably one of the most important things to me and i will always wish the best for them. even though this world can be a shitty place, if you know you are loved then nothing else really matters because success is not how much money you have or what kind of car you have. success is happiness, success is being loved and loving others. a successful person is not one who wears the designer clothing, lives in the biggest mansion, and drives the fastest car. that is a wealthy person but how happy is he really? success is what you make it and i want to be successful in life.
death, it is going to happen to you. and dying alone has got to be the worst thing in the world. i have lost people i love and probably the most important person in my life felt he was not succesful just because he did not have all of the luxuries of a millionaire and because of that he ended his life (along with other reasons but this was one major point that was made in it) im sure he knew he was loved, which he was. and still is, and he will never be forgotten by me. but did he see that as success? unfortunatly a decision was made that can not be changed and it ended one life and forever changed mine. i am a much different person than i would be at this point if such a thing never happened. i am not saying i like what happened but i can not change it and if it was his time then maybe he had to go and find success in another life.
today i possibly saved a life (for the time being). was this a life changing experience for me? that i do not know, and only time will tell. but i think i could have just made somebody die happy, loved, and most of all succesful for whenever their time will come (no time soon i hope.)
i still dont have any direction in my life, and i personally dont think i am ready to work for my perfection. only because i do not know what it is and i do not feel i am mature enough yet. when it comes then i will know. but i know i still need some growing up to do. which i am not yet ready to do as much as id like to say i am it just wouldnt be 100% true.
i do not often express myself like this and it is not the easiest thing for me to do. for anyone who reads this i hope you get something out of it because it is what i live my life by. yes, you should live your life for yourself. but dont forget about those you love. live it for them too. make it your goal to make somebody smile, make somebody happy, make somebody love, because in return it will only make you feel better about yourself knowing that you made another persons day/life better. and what you do in your life does not only effect your life.
death, it is going to happen to you. and dying alone has got to be the worst thing in the world. i have lost people i love and probably the most important person in my life felt he was not succesful just because he did not have all of the luxuries of a millionaire and because of that he ended his life (along with other reasons but this was one major point that was made in it) im sure he knew he was loved, which he was. and still is, and he will never be forgotten by me. but did he see that as success? unfortunatly a decision was made that can not be changed and it ended one life and forever changed mine. i am a much different person than i would be at this point if such a thing never happened. i am not saying i like what happened but i can not change it and if it was his time then maybe he had to go and find success in another life.
today i possibly saved a life (for the time being). was this a life changing experience for me? that i do not know, and only time will tell. but i think i could have just made somebody die happy, loved, and most of all succesful for whenever their time will come (no time soon i hope.)
i still dont have any direction in my life, and i personally dont think i am ready to work for my perfection. only because i do not know what it is and i do not feel i am mature enough yet. when it comes then i will know. but i know i still need some growing up to do. which i am not yet ready to do as much as id like to say i am it just wouldnt be 100% true.
i do not often express myself like this and it is not the easiest thing for me to do. for anyone who reads this i hope you get something out of it because it is what i live my life by. yes, you should live your life for yourself. but dont forget about those you love. live it for them too. make it your goal to make somebody smile, make somebody happy, make somebody love, because in return it will only make you feel better about yourself knowing that you made another persons day/life better. and what you do in your life does not only effect your life.