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hey, so its been a while, theres always alot on my mind when i write here.. i cant even put it into words.. im so depressed, i need a change and i dont know what it is but whatever it is thats making me feel this way is tearing me apart, its ruining my job, my love life, my happiness... im deteriorating and no one can help.. im so far gone i dont know if ill ever come back this time.. i sit around and wonder what im doing wrong, and all i can do is cry and i dont know why.. things arent that bad in retrospect but i cant stop crying and feeling so empty when life used to be so full..

here i am again
a broken mess again
and im drillin deaper
gonna fall away
im not myself today
and im growing farther.....