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So I was looking through my old journal entries, which has became a hobby of mine, and I found this old journal. This just shows how incredible it is that the present repeats the past. Everything contained here has just changed my life, instantly, once again.
Current mood: Is mitosis a mood?
Current music: The Early November - Dinner at the Money Table
"please, i beseech you, never settle for less. i wouldn't wish that on anyone. be patient, be yourself. i don't mean to be preachy, but heaven- i'm sick of mediocrity. i'm sick of second best. know what you want and get it. don't know what you want and wait. don't persue what you don't desperately want. better lonely and looking than in less than perfect company. blah, blah, blah."
-Andrew
I doubt this was meant for me, but I can honestly say that that is the best advice I have heard in, well, a long time. I just realized how quickly I fell for her and how foolish I was. I really need to stop being so affectionate.
How odd it is to actually say that..
I guess I can say I'm tired of trying, tired of failing. I never fail. It was just this year, that I did. I don't get it. I'm not conceded, but I usually have a romantic, confident, and joyful time with women. And it always works out. I don't know what it is now? Maybe girls are just dumber now.. It's probably television, that's why I don't watch it that often, if none at all.
Back onto subject; I think my romantic days are over. In that sense, I say that my days of romanticizing women are over. It's just not worth the pain anymore. I'm tired of settling for mediocrity. I'm tired of settling for less. I'm tired of being lonely. I'm tired of being impatient and whiny when I actually try, and it's pointless. I'm tired of falling for all of you.
I'm tired, oh so tired of writing about every last one of you. I don't think another word could improve our situation.
You're old news. Your headlines have burned in the fire of my memory, to ashes. No more rising for you, my phoenix. You're ashes now. The only part of you that will catch my eye is when you decide to move and take someone else down with you.
I apologize for the harshness, but some people just need to have a reality check. Who ever thought I would say "reality check?"
Current mood: Is mitosis a mood?
Current music: The Early November - Dinner at the Money Table
"please, i beseech you, never settle for less. i wouldn't wish that on anyone. be patient, be yourself. i don't mean to be preachy, but heaven- i'm sick of mediocrity. i'm sick of second best. know what you want and get it. don't know what you want and wait. don't persue what you don't desperately want. better lonely and looking than in less than perfect company. blah, blah, blah."
-Andrew
I doubt this was meant for me, but I can honestly say that that is the best advice I have heard in, well, a long time. I just realized how quickly I fell for her and how foolish I was. I really need to stop being so affectionate.
How odd it is to actually say that..
I guess I can say I'm tired of trying, tired of failing. I never fail. It was just this year, that I did. I don't get it. I'm not conceded, but I usually have a romantic, confident, and joyful time with women. And it always works out. I don't know what it is now? Maybe girls are just dumber now.. It's probably television, that's why I don't watch it that often, if none at all.
Back onto subject; I think my romantic days are over. In that sense, I say that my days of romanticizing women are over. It's just not worth the pain anymore. I'm tired of settling for mediocrity. I'm tired of settling for less. I'm tired of being lonely. I'm tired of being impatient and whiny when I actually try, and it's pointless. I'm tired of falling for all of you.
I'm tired, oh so tired of writing about every last one of you. I don't think another word could improve our situation.
You're old news. Your headlines have burned in the fire of my memory, to ashes. No more rising for you, my phoenix. You're ashes now. The only part of you that will catch my eye is when you decide to move and take someone else down with you.
I apologize for the harshness, but some people just need to have a reality check. Who ever thought I would say "reality check?"