...just a little bit.
i've been feeling so much of a lot lately. a blur has remained in my mind for weeks now. i know what i want, but it's a struggle to get there. i've been wanting to write forever but everytime i sit down and do it i get stuck. i can't find the words to express myself. my pen doesn't flow the way it used to. at times i don't want to face reality, at times i don't care. i guess my bad isn't so bad, when i look at the big picture i realize things can be much worse so i don't really have anything to complain about. i guess its true...life goes on. after speaking with a friend, i realized happiness does come in spurts. so many people, including myself are on a search for happiness, that's cool and all but with the good comes the bad. you can never be truly happy...so i suppose what i truly want is to be in a place in my life where the emotion of happiness overpowers the rest. i can settle for that. i know i'll find that soon. hopefully sooner than later.
"Just a little bit stronger Just a little bit wiser Just a little less needy And maybe I'd get there... Just a little bit pretty Just a little more aware Just a little bit thinner And maybe I'd get there... Clearly, clearly I remember Hiking up my skirt Asking for your time Clearly, clearly I remember Nervous if ever confronted And questioning myself Oh perhaps, perhaps if I got better Perhaps if I challenged myself Perhaps if I was Just a little bit stronger Just a little bit wiser Just a little less needy And maybe I'd get there... Just a little bit pretty Just a little more aware Just a little bit thinner And maybe I'd get there... Clearly, clearly I remember hiking up my skirt Staring blank ahead Clearly, clearly I remember Days of useless crying Almost feeling dead Oh perhaps, perhaps if I was smaller Perhaps, I could control myself Perhaps if I was Just a little bit stronger Just a little bit wiser Just a little less needy And maybe I'd get there..."
*Maria Mena*