umm yea that's right.
i never thought a single experience, let alone another individual would ever make such a profound affect on who and what i am. so my name luz but i like spelling it luzz not only becuase i like the way it looks but because it makes me feel a lil different maybe a bit more special...i'm not sure. i have my story just like everyone else does..the past, the present, the future...they all lay a world away from one another but no matter what it's my life, my experiences, my journey. nobody's gonna take that away from me. well i wish i can say that with as much confidance as i'd like to but i'm kind of hesitant bc i feel a part of me has been taken. not just A part...but a pretty significant part. my heart, my soul, my spirit...they all go together hand in hand, once one is missing it's hard to feel complete. it's hard to reattach and mend what was once broken. it's okay though because here i am standing as strong as i can. i try so hard not to look back in the past and to anticipate the future & sieze each and every day that's given. okay so i do half of what i try. the past is something i'll never forget...it's something i think about everyday that i'm here. so who am i? well who i am now is an individual. we all are. a caring individual who makes an attempt at being selfless but often fails and becomes selfish. an individual who is very determined and hung up on goals and dreams but often slacks once reality kicks in. an individual who will take risks whenever time calls for it but often becomes scared at what the outcome is and/or will be. an individual with such high expectations of thyself who often kicks herself in the shin when certain standards aren't met. a self-conscious individual regarding appearance who often forgets that beauty is not skin-deep but more of what's underneath. an individual who wants to be taught, told & shown just as much as what's given but often forgets that what's given may not be equal. i can go on with you i am and what i do and what i'll want accomplished in this life time but i'm not going to simply because that wasn't necesarily the point of this entry. the point was that i'm happy with where i am and i'm grateful and more glad than ever to be given what's on my plate & to fulfill the shoes that i'm in but there's a part of me that i just miss so much and i wish i had it back but i don't think i ever will. and even though i miss it as much as i do it's not going to weigh me down. i suppose some things just go unsettled and that's something i'll have to settle for. no ifs ands or buts, that's just how it is which is why i've taken that and grown from it. so that leaves me here...luzz sandra duarte standing tall. standing proud. i am who i am.