Lalala...
Wow, it has been a long ass mofo-in time since I've updated this beast, lol. Been quite busy. School, band, people, and tons more, heh. I'm in a pretty good mood incase you haven't noticed. Everything is kind of starting to fall into place. THE GUIDANCE PEOPLE FINALLY FIXED MY SCHEDULE!!!!!!!! w00t. Here's the new one:
English III, English IV Honors, band, stagecraft, jazz band, economics, and then drama. Fun, fun, fun.
Anywhoot, tomorrow I'm going paintballing again with Brian. I went for the first time this past Sunday, it was really fun, especially since I didn't get shot. I'm hoping I'll continue to not get shot tomorrow, lol. I don't think I will, Brian's really cool about protecting me.
Yeah, so those of you who actually know me, know that I have been wrestling with... a bit of a situation. I love Wes, with all of my heart, and to the best of my teenage knowledge. But I don't wanna be a 17 year old wife. And, well, the issue goes on, and you know the story. (If you don't, then you prolly weren't meant to, sorry!) Moving along, I talked to Wes last night and I think it went pretty damn well. Infact I couldn't have hoped for a better conversation. It's like this gigantic, horrid weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I swear, Wes is the most incredible person in the world. He could not have been more understanding of the whole ordeal. Heh, I told Brian that I talked to Wes... about everything. He was a bit worried that Wes was gonna cause him some pain, lol. He said he wouldn't, and I believe him, so I told Brian not to worry. It's still hard, obviously, no matter what outcome, I knew that it was gonna be hard. But this is the best I could've imagined it to be. To my understanding of last night's outcome... well, I don't know if I could exactly define the result. We're not broken up... but... I'm not playing the teenage wife part anymore... I guess I'm with Wes, with the allowance to see other people? Or something... I don't know... it's still a bit gray as to... well... everything, but at least it's out in the open. I do know that, regardless of my status right now, I'm not going to be sleeping with anyone. I don't wanna get in that deep with anyone else. No way in hell.
Well, I guess that's all for now. Later peoples.
English III, English IV Honors, band, stagecraft, jazz band, economics, and then drama. Fun, fun, fun.
Anywhoot, tomorrow I'm going paintballing again with Brian. I went for the first time this past Sunday, it was really fun, especially since I didn't get shot. I'm hoping I'll continue to not get shot tomorrow, lol. I don't think I will, Brian's really cool about protecting me.
Yeah, so those of you who actually know me, know that I have been wrestling with... a bit of a situation. I love Wes, with all of my heart, and to the best of my teenage knowledge. But I don't wanna be a 17 year old wife. And, well, the issue goes on, and you know the story. (If you don't, then you prolly weren't meant to, sorry!) Moving along, I talked to Wes last night and I think it went pretty damn well. Infact I couldn't have hoped for a better conversation. It's like this gigantic, horrid weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I swear, Wes is the most incredible person in the world. He could not have been more understanding of the whole ordeal. Heh, I told Brian that I talked to Wes... about everything. He was a bit worried that Wes was gonna cause him some pain, lol. He said he wouldn't, and I believe him, so I told Brian not to worry. It's still hard, obviously, no matter what outcome, I knew that it was gonna be hard. But this is the best I could've imagined it to be. To my understanding of last night's outcome... well, I don't know if I could exactly define the result. We're not broken up... but... I'm not playing the teenage wife part anymore... I guess I'm with Wes, with the allowance to see other people? Or something... I don't know... it's still a bit gray as to... well... everything, but at least it's out in the open. I do know that, regardless of my status right now, I'm not going to be sleeping with anyone. I don't wanna get in that deep with anyone else. No way in hell.
Well, I guess that's all for now. Later peoples.