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.............my cousin Heather's wedding is tonight. She's the nicest person in the world, although I must say I never saw her after she met her fiance-to-be. Last night I went to the "out of towners" dinner, yeah even though I'm not from out of town. I guess my aunt really want us to be there. It's always fun to get engaged into that "what are you doing with your life these days" conversation. I feel myself having to vindicate what I'm doing at the moment and it's just emotionally draining when I want to just be there enjoying somebody else's special moment. My hair was also topic of conversation with nearly everyone there. My own cousin Jason didn't even recognize me (he wasn't the only), how funny is that shit??? My whole image is so different from when I was younger and it's just funny to think that at the core certain people can't even place my face.
Tonight's the wedding.............it's over at Fire Rock in Fountain Hills. Should be pretty fun, I mean after all my cousin and her fiance are only 28 and 29 and all their friends are around the same age.........most of the UofA grads like myself. I got a good laugh looking at the groom's table, most of the guys there were STILL going to school when I was a senior - TRANSLATION: They were all 6th and 7th year guys hahah........ Some of them I even remembered from the bars. Ah well............I think you can pretty much place a bet on the fact that I'll be doing some introspective inquiry while I am there tonight. I mean after all I'm 25 and that's about it........that's all I can really say about myself at the moment.
So many questions linger about me. I can tell it in my parents, I can tell it in people that know me. My father last night mentioned something about hopefully one day in his lifetime he'll have this same "wedding" moment with his son. He was a tad bit drunk, but sometimes I wonder why he even has to say it. It's apparent that there's some concern there. Same with everone else in the family who knows me.
They just don't get it yet. I'm not on your conventional path. I've known this for a long time now. Soon as I step up and take hold of it, I will finally silence all these questions........... but for now I remain an enigma to just about everyone who knows me.
Tonight's the wedding.............it's over at Fire Rock in Fountain Hills. Should be pretty fun, I mean after all my cousin and her fiance are only 28 and 29 and all their friends are around the same age.........most of the UofA grads like myself. I got a good laugh looking at the groom's table, most of the guys there were STILL going to school when I was a senior - TRANSLATION: They were all 6th and 7th year guys hahah........ Some of them I even remembered from the bars. Ah well............I think you can pretty much place a bet on the fact that I'll be doing some introspective inquiry while I am there tonight. I mean after all I'm 25 and that's about it........that's all I can really say about myself at the moment.
So many questions linger about me. I can tell it in my parents, I can tell it in people that know me. My father last night mentioned something about hopefully one day in his lifetime he'll have this same "wedding" moment with his son. He was a tad bit drunk, but sometimes I wonder why he even has to say it. It's apparent that there's some concern there. Same with everone else in the family who knows me.
They just don't get it yet. I'm not on your conventional path. I've known this for a long time now. Soon as I step up and take hold of it, I will finally silence all these questions........... but for now I remain an enigma to just about everyone who knows me.