"Get a job!"
Everyone tells me I need to. As if I somehow hadn't gone these past few months with that very thought weighing on my mind every waking hour of every day. I'm not really sure how to take that. I see opportunities here and there for middling jobs, but then what? I have enough to pay for gas for my car? Maybe make a car payment every other month?
I can't accept that. I need to pay Liz back. I need to make all my payments, every month. And I need to regain the independence I had before. A temporary, crap job will only consume the time I could and should spend looking for a permanent job that will actually manage to get me out of the massive hole I'm in.
I hate this economy. I hate this job market. And I hate myself for not doing more in the past to improve my marketability.
I can't accept that. I need to pay Liz back. I need to make all my payments, every month. And I need to regain the independence I had before. A temporary, crap job will only consume the time I could and should spend looking for a permanent job that will actually manage to get me out of the massive hole I'm in.
I hate this economy. I hate this job market. And I hate myself for not doing more in the past to improve my marketability.