thinking of before this
im in a really wierd place. wierd mood. uncomfortable state of mind, whatever you want to call it.
i dont know where i am anymore. emily put it perfectly, "this summer is like some sort of limbo, we're just waiting for college to come"...yea, im waiting for orientation and then ill be too excited to be concerned with anything else, im not sure if i like that so much, minus the whole new pool of people thing. so much is going on and there isnt enough time or money to go around. i want to make everyone happy but in the interim im miserable. i havent felt like this in a while, and i think i know why.
graduating high school hasnt really set in yet. im not emotional about it, or anything for that matter. the last day of school wasnt bad, i listened to the tick tock song and i was content, i got my cafeteria cookies for the last time and they were ok, and seeing some of my teachers for the last time wasnt anything to cry about either. these people have supposedly affected my life tremendously and in the end, it was nothing but a distant memory, nothing but disappointment. so heres to the next step, a new chapter..the real world part 1.
warning michelle cooper will be crying on august 23rd and 24th..not something to be missed (eventhough last night i found myself crying as well, damn me)
why why why why
i dont know where i am anymore. emily put it perfectly, "this summer is like some sort of limbo, we're just waiting for college to come"...yea, im waiting for orientation and then ill be too excited to be concerned with anything else, im not sure if i like that so much, minus the whole new pool of people thing. so much is going on and there isnt enough time or money to go around. i want to make everyone happy but in the interim im miserable. i havent felt like this in a while, and i think i know why.
graduating high school hasnt really set in yet. im not emotional about it, or anything for that matter. the last day of school wasnt bad, i listened to the tick tock song and i was content, i got my cafeteria cookies for the last time and they were ok, and seeing some of my teachers for the last time wasnt anything to cry about either. these people have supposedly affected my life tremendously and in the end, it was nothing but a distant memory, nothing but disappointment. so heres to the next step, a new chapter..the real world part 1.
warning michelle cooper will be crying on august 23rd and 24th..not something to be missed (eventhough last night i found myself crying as well, damn me)
why why why why