4 poems
Exit?
The trigger in her mouth,
Barrel pointed somewhere else.
I'll slip a pill into you,
Won't even feel it.
Won't even feel a thing.
I heard it was dangerous business
walking anywhere near you.
Frequent my steps around not towards.
But damn, I've always desired the brush of your lips.
Lost my nerve in-between movements,
I'm failing on patience.
My foot on your neck,
Stop talking and let me show you...
A sea of red in a world of black,
I'm losing too much blood in this darkness.
Why do I still try?
Your taking up my time,
Digesting me with every rhyme,
Spilling over every thought,
Like a nightmare,
I'm so lost.
Oh my God Oh my God,
I'm fucking lost.
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In the garbage next door
Born in a field of glass,
I was stepping in pain before I knew what it was.
Found myself amongst trash,
An empty bottle of vodka and a half-finished snack.
The ground is dancing,
I think it's found its match.
Dribbling my sentences,
No matter what I say,
No matter what I lie here,
I'll be a series of unfinished sequences.
No where near,
No where near...
Rain. Each drop falling ever so gracefully
From a great mist I will never know.
Heaven. Could only be with you.
I'm dying here with neither you, nor anything, not even myself...
Shit! I'm already dead, I'm so dead...
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A message
As nervous as a first time astronaut,
look to the skies and my knees shake.
"There's a medicine for that",
sings an electronic voice
But I like to see things as they are.
I'm not good enough for this,
I'm not good enough for you.
...But don't ask me to provide a pleasant air
Whilst you hold his hand and I drown in despair.
I won't be a middle man,
I won't be your jealous lil' toy.
...Then I realize,
I'm just as miserable without you.
Pillaging pirate, thief of my heart,
With every glance you take a bit more.
Two eyes so seductive,
leads me to lips like blossoming rose petals.
And you talk to me of patience,
Whilst a goddess stands before me,
Separated by a glass wall from my hands.
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Sign in the shop window reads "gone"
There's this mask I wear around you,
Lies have smudged the paint.
So I stand before you, a faded monotone gray.
Plans to unveil the hidden face,
Always made but never accomplished.
Will I forever be the one forgotten?
And even as the amount of clowns
and carnivals between us number more than one,
My thoughts wander only to you.
I fear, there is no turning back.
My body bleeds tears as broken bones brush,
The sundown of a smile.
I was dressed in make-up, unpleasant fakeup,
The man I once knew...gone.
We had our eyes open, but dizzy dreams ran in circles,
Heart vs. Brain, I didn't think it'd last this long.
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all written in Hungary and On a plane 10,000 feet above the ground.
The trigger in her mouth,
Barrel pointed somewhere else.
I'll slip a pill into you,
Won't even feel it.
Won't even feel a thing.
I heard it was dangerous business
walking anywhere near you.
Frequent my steps around not towards.
But damn, I've always desired the brush of your lips.
Lost my nerve in-between movements,
I'm failing on patience.
My foot on your neck,
Stop talking and let me show you...
A sea of red in a world of black,
I'm losing too much blood in this darkness.
Why do I still try?
Your taking up my time,
Digesting me with every rhyme,
Spilling over every thought,
Like a nightmare,
I'm so lost.
Oh my God Oh my God,
I'm fucking lost.
======================================================
In the garbage next door
Born in a field of glass,
I was stepping in pain before I knew what it was.
Found myself amongst trash,
An empty bottle of vodka and a half-finished snack.
The ground is dancing,
I think it's found its match.
Dribbling my sentences,
No matter what I say,
No matter what I lie here,
I'll be a series of unfinished sequences.
No where near,
No where near...
Rain. Each drop falling ever so gracefully
From a great mist I will never know.
Heaven. Could only be with you.
I'm dying here with neither you, nor anything, not even myself...
Shit! I'm already dead, I'm so dead...
==================================================================
A message
As nervous as a first time astronaut,
look to the skies and my knees shake.
"There's a medicine for that",
sings an electronic voice
But I like to see things as they are.
I'm not good enough for this,
I'm not good enough for you.
...But don't ask me to provide a pleasant air
Whilst you hold his hand and I drown in despair.
I won't be a middle man,
I won't be your jealous lil' toy.
...Then I realize,
I'm just as miserable without you.
Pillaging pirate, thief of my heart,
With every glance you take a bit more.
Two eyes so seductive,
leads me to lips like blossoming rose petals.
And you talk to me of patience,
Whilst a goddess stands before me,
Separated by a glass wall from my hands.
=================================================================
Sign in the shop window reads "gone"
There's this mask I wear around you,
Lies have smudged the paint.
So I stand before you, a faded monotone gray.
Plans to unveil the hidden face,
Always made but never accomplished.
Will I forever be the one forgotten?
And even as the amount of clowns
and carnivals between us number more than one,
My thoughts wander only to you.
I fear, there is no turning back.
My body bleeds tears as broken bones brush,
The sundown of a smile.
I was dressed in make-up, unpleasant fakeup,
The man I once knew...gone.
We had our eyes open, but dizzy dreams ran in circles,
Heart vs. Brain, I didn't think it'd last this long.
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all written in Hungary and On a plane 10,000 feet above the ground.