still....
I still think about you. It feels like it's almost every day. I close my eyes and I see you smiling at me. but then I open them and you are gone. It still saddens me. I'm not sure I will ever truly recover/heal. I'm not sure that I am supposed to. Maybe you are to serve a reminder that life is short and you shouldn't hold anything back. Whatever the reason, I cherished every second that we spent together, even tho it may not have seemed that way and I failed to mention it. But I loved you. And I still do. And I always will. And I miss you. And I want you back in my life. I would do anything to have you back. But there is nothing I can do. Just sit here and remember. And with every memory I will smile, for I know it was not for nothing....