happiness
i keep wanting to write in here. but i keep delaying, putting it of and just being too lazy to write. and then when i actually want to, it's late and i need to get up early. tonight is obviously no exception.
so a couple weeks ago, i went out drinking because i was pissed about being misinformed. so as i was driving home after a drink or 2, i passed by Brian's crash site, and all of a sudden, a rush of tears just ran out my eyes and down my face. i still remember it all like it was yesterday. it doesn't feel like it's been 8 years.
i don't know where i'm going. i don't know what i want. i do know that i'm on the road to happiness. i wish i could have met them both at different times. i'm lost and confused. i want everything but don't want to take anything. i wish everything could be laid out. just tell me where to go and what to do.
i don't like the complications of dating. i don't like the whole uncertainty. i wish there was a button that just said if it would work or not. so we wouldn't have to go through life wondering.
so a couple weeks ago, i went out drinking because i was pissed about being misinformed. so as i was driving home after a drink or 2, i passed by Brian's crash site, and all of a sudden, a rush of tears just ran out my eyes and down my face. i still remember it all like it was yesterday. it doesn't feel like it's been 8 years.
i don't know where i'm going. i don't know what i want. i do know that i'm on the road to happiness. i wish i could have met them both at different times. i'm lost and confused. i want everything but don't want to take anything. i wish everything could be laid out. just tell me where to go and what to do.
i don't like the complications of dating. i don't like the whole uncertainty. i wish there was a button that just said if it would work or not. so we wouldn't have to go through life wondering.