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Today I started taking medicine for my generalized anxiety disorder. Honestly, it's really nice to finally have a name for the symptoms I've had all my life and to know that I'm not just crazy, weak, or whiny. I spent a long time talking with a doctor yesterday (to whom I had been referred by my counselor) and taking assessments, and chatting about the results. I was oddly relieved when she said that I was exhibiting severe signs of anxiety. I think that's because it was the first time I've allowed myself to truly believe that this is all legitimate and not just some ridiculous flight of fancy.
I have no pretentions that this will be a magical cure-all, or that the process will always be good or positive, but I have hope. I know this may be a long process, but I'm still going to be doing counseling as well so that hopefully over time I'll be able to wean myself off of medication and just implement the psychological tools and skills I'm learning now. I feel like I'm taking steps in the right direction now, as opposed to just wishing that these feelings, thoughts, and symptoms will eventually go away if I just finish the thing on my to do list, or if I just push through the feelings.
I wish you all, in your endeavors, the feelings of hope that I now possess and I wish you good mental health :-D.
I have no pretentions that this will be a magical cure-all, or that the process will always be good or positive, but I have hope. I know this may be a long process, but I'm still going to be doing counseling as well so that hopefully over time I'll be able to wean myself off of medication and just implement the psychological tools and skills I'm learning now. I feel like I'm taking steps in the right direction now, as opposed to just wishing that these feelings, thoughts, and symptoms will eventually go away if I just finish the thing on my to do list, or if I just push through the feelings.
I wish you all, in your endeavors, the feelings of hope that I now possess and I wish you good mental health :-D.