I WANT THIS.
You know I actually liked it better when my blog title read "My Confessions" ? This actually came from a Josh Groban song with the exact same title. Go look it up if you are free. The lyrics is really amazing. Well at least it conveyed a lot of things I was feeling at that point in life. And even now too.
So I want to confess something.
I really do not want N..U. .S. And I am not really looking forward to the interview tomorrow for this reason.
Of course I am not going to go screw it up on purpose as well. That is just plain stupid.
I have a little secret desire and I want to go to Sydney to study instead.
I REALLY WANT THE SCHOLARSHIP. Not having the money to study is really frustrating to me and I hate myself for wishing I was born into a richer family. Not that I am unhappy with my social status in the world but sometimes it really is so much easier to be rich and not worry about finances. Especially when it is limiting you from chasing your dreams. Especially when money is the ONLY restricting factor.
...and I really want that little something else also.
How much faith/boldness do I need to ask God to give it to me?
It is like I don't even dare to ask for it openly; loudly declare it in my prayers that "LORD I WANT IT", rather than " God I hope to get it pleaseeeeee *insert tiny smile*"?
Urgh.
Give me grace to see beyond this moment here
To believe that there is nothing left to fear
So I want to confess something.
I really do not want N..U. .S. And I am not really looking forward to the interview tomorrow for this reason.
Of course I am not going to go screw it up on purpose as well. That is just plain stupid.
I have a little secret desire and I want to go to Sydney to study instead.
I REALLY WANT THE SCHOLARSHIP. Not having the money to study is really frustrating to me and I hate myself for wishing I was born into a richer family. Not that I am unhappy with my social status in the world but sometimes it really is so much easier to be rich and not worry about finances. Especially when it is limiting you from chasing your dreams. Especially when money is the ONLY restricting factor.
...and I really want that little something else also.
How much faith/boldness do I need to ask God to give it to me?
It is like I don't even dare to ask for it openly; loudly declare it in my prayers that "LORD I WANT IT", rather than " God I hope to get it pleaseeeeee *insert tiny smile*"?
Urgh.
Give me grace to see beyond this moment here
To believe that there is nothing left to fear