are we there yet?
"I almost literally cried tonight because I missed you so badly."
August 9, 2006.
"Anyway, I wanna talk about how much I really, really, really like you...which to me is more than just saying I love you all the time. I have an extreme desire to spend time with you and to get to know you better and better, which is far greater of a feeling than just having overbearing love towards somebody."
4:33 am.
"Basically, I waited until my mushyness subsided, otherwise you would have gotten a far more pathetic messege about how much I want to hold you and kiss you and marry you."
Alan was sitting in his hot bedroom staring at his giant monitor. I was asleep. We were in love.
"I expect full gratification by the end of the week, NO EXCEPTIONS."
A joke that still makes me smile.
"Love, Alan.
PS I hope you didnt just cheat on me or anything like that, because this messege might seem a bit overbearing if thats the case."
Ugh. I am such a fucking terrible person, holy shit.
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Tonight I'm working on a big project. I am really sick but I hope I can at least get a little bit done. My sinuses are just burning, and there's a constant drip on either end of my nose. My throat is so scratchy.
Work was dumb. Chris and I bonded more. He wants me to go to the bar with him and some friend. They are like 27. :/
I don't see that happening. Like, ever.
What else, what else...umm...
I visited Edinboro last weekend. I got to see Kurt and Blaise! It was fun, but really sort of creepy and weird at the same time. I drove home 8 hours after I arrived because I was insanely lonely. 4 hours in one day, I think that's a new record for me. I got back to Pittsburgh around 3am and went to Dylan's house. I walked in on David, Alex and Tylew (Tyler with a lisp) playing Starcraft and halfheartedly trying to get drunk. David and I went back to his house, cuddled and passed out until noon. He is extremely comfortable.
Time to go do the first one of these that I've done in 3 years. Fuck.
August 9, 2006.
"Anyway, I wanna talk about how much I really, really, really like you...which to me is more than just saying I love you all the time. I have an extreme desire to spend time with you and to get to know you better and better, which is far greater of a feeling than just having overbearing love towards somebody."
4:33 am.
"Basically, I waited until my mushyness subsided, otherwise you would have gotten a far more pathetic messege about how much I want to hold you and kiss you and marry you."
Alan was sitting in his hot bedroom staring at his giant monitor. I was asleep. We were in love.
"I expect full gratification by the end of the week, NO EXCEPTIONS."
A joke that still makes me smile.
"Love, Alan.
PS I hope you didnt just cheat on me or anything like that, because this messege might seem a bit overbearing if thats the case."
Ugh. I am such a fucking terrible person, holy shit.
-
Tonight I'm working on a big project. I am really sick but I hope I can at least get a little bit done. My sinuses are just burning, and there's a constant drip on either end of my nose. My throat is so scratchy.
Work was dumb. Chris and I bonded more. He wants me to go to the bar with him and some friend. They are like 27. :/
I don't see that happening. Like, ever.
What else, what else...umm...
I visited Edinboro last weekend. I got to see Kurt and Blaise! It was fun, but really sort of creepy and weird at the same time. I drove home 8 hours after I arrived because I was insanely lonely. 4 hours in one day, I think that's a new record for me. I got back to Pittsburgh around 3am and went to Dylan's house. I walked in on David, Alex and Tylew (Tyler with a lisp) playing Starcraft and halfheartedly trying to get drunk. David and I went back to his house, cuddled and passed out until noon. He is extremely comfortable.
Time to go do the first one of these that I've done in 3 years. Fuck.