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Intelligence is a concept that eludes me constantly. One minute I am with people who consider me supremely intelligent and I find myself thinking (and this thought comes with incredible guilt) that I am needing to talk down to their level, and then the next minute I'm talking to people whose intelligence totally outweighs my own and who can run rings around me. And books too; I can find myself having to read some passages two or three times before I come to understand them. Not academic books, just normal everyday books. It's almost as though I live in a no mans land between the intelligent ones and the rest and almost never do I meet someone and think I have met an equal. The question of what intelligence actually constitutes is something to tackle another day, but what I mean in this sense is mostly just simple comprehension of concepts in a timely fashion. I don't want to have to spend half an hour absorbing an idea only for it to be gone again the following day, thereby forcing me to repeat the whole procedure again. My brain just can not store these things effectively. Half the stuff I learned for my dissertation on rave I have almost totally forgotten now. It just sucks. I guess I'm being very emo but I just feel incredibly stupid today. ARGH!!