Making Sure
This is a continuation from my earlier fic Birthday Surprise. I’ve been trying to write it for awhile but haven’t been able to get motivated. I suppose my avoidance of Monday’s episode has something to do with it. (I can’t believe I’ve actually avoided watching it. I just can’t take seeing Luke get rejected twice. I’ve heard he acts like a jerk but I see no good reason for Noah being able to hurt him AGAIN so that part I just don’t even want to see. I know Reid probably has every right to say all the stuff he says at the apartment later, but I have a soft spot for Luke, especially after all the crap he’s been dealt by his family and Noah the last few months and I just want to stay in denial until I see the next episode and promo for next week and have some hope before I put myself through watching all the angst) My first fic with a sex scene that’s more descriptive than I usually do and a little nervous about it so hopefully it comes out okay. You should definitely read Birthday Surprise first or else you'll be a little confused. Comments/Feedback=<3 btw: this is random, but there’s this new promo out for lily and holden and the song playing in the background is all for love-serena ryder. I’ve quickly fallen in love with this song and I think it really fits where Luke is right now and in relation to Reid, so if someone could make a fanvid to this song, I think it’d be epic =] okay done rambling, onto fanfiction!
Title: Making Sure
Rating: a little nc-17 I guess
I do not own anything!!
Luke and Reid stumbled into Katie's apartment, attached at the lips, clutching at each other wildly. Luckily, they had the place to themselves. Don’t need a repeat of Henry or Katie walking in on us. Reid has no shame. He took his time putting his pants back on, giving both of them a total show of not only his dick but his ass. Scarred them for life probably. It was kind of worth it to see Henry frantically covering his face with his hand while screaming “My eyes! For the love of all that is good in the world, put some clothes on!” Luke broke the kiss with a chuckle, Reid quirked a curious brow, looking almost affronted at their make-out being cut off, especially due to laughing.
"Why are you laughing?" he asked, voice coming out in gasps, breathless from their intense kissing, but still managing to sound incredulous and curious at the same time. All Luke gave a small smirk, shrugging.
“Just a memory,” Luke said simply. Reid narrowed his eyes a bit. Luke relented, eyes sparkling in amusement. “That day you finished up surgery early and my trip to Seattle to visit Aaron got postponed and we came back here,” he said in a seductive, sing-song way that caused Reid to smile brightly, eyes turning darker as he was becoming more turned-on, “and we were naked right here in the living room and you were kissing down my chest, and right as you began sucking my cock…” Luke was leaning in towards Reid’s ear, sucking on it teasingly, listening to the hot little pants coming from Reid beautiful mouth before continuing…..“who comes in but Katie and Henry!”
“Ugh,” Reid groaned melodramatically, glaring as Luke held onto stomach, doubling over in laughter. He brought both hands up to his temple, rubbing anxiously. “Why did you have to do that? Bringing up Hank at this very moment? That’s just mean. He’s enough to kill anyone’s sex drive, especially mine.”
“I don’t know,” Luke said, finally regaining control of himself, crossing his arms loosely over his chest. “I’ve always thought Henry was kind of hot.” He schooled his tone seriously and had to bite his lip to the point of bleeding to stop from laughing at Reid’s face. His eyes went wide and his mouth dropped open, looking like someone had just stolen his stethoscope or questioned his amazing capabilities as a surgeon.
“Hot? Hank?” His voice had risen about ten notches. “Alright, that’s it, get out! There’s no way I can marry someone who actually thinks that crazy, clown-shirt wearing idiot is attractive in any sense.”
“What can I say? I have a thing for older guys,” he teased mercilessly.
“Hey! Who are you calling old? Just because you’ve barely made it out of puberty does not make me ready for the nursing home just yet.” Reid mock scowled at him, but the slight quirk of lips told Luke everything was in jest. Luke laughed lightly in return. He closed the distance between them, putting his hands on Reid’s shoulder and back, running his hands lazily over his body. Reid’s hands found his waist, gripping him a bit possessively, causing Luke’s smile to deepen, dimples blooming instantly.
“Henry’s got nothing on you,” Luke whispered lovingly, winking comically, causing Reid to snort loudly, rolling his eyes.
“Gee, thanks. I feel all warm and fuzzy now,” he drawled sarcastically. Luke’s smile softened as he traced a cheek down his fiancé’s face, reveling in the feel of smooth skin beneath his fingertips.
"You're beautiful." He saw Reid grimace and roll his eyes, knowing he didn't particularly enjoy that sentiment, but he also saw the light brighten in his eyes and the small blush spread across his cheeks he would never admit was possible. He grabbed Reid’s chin and brought his gaze up to his own, forcing him to see just how serious he was. "I mean it. You're gorgeous...and wonderful….and more than I ever dreamed to hope for."
Reid grasped the back of his head, bringing him in for a deep kiss. Tongues met, stroked, sucked, dueled, and Luke found himself being lowered onto the couch. Reid laid fully on top of him, touching him everywhere. His skin felt on fire, scorched at every point Reid's expert, loving hands fell and he wasn't even out of his clothes yet, jacket and all still intact. Luke ran his hands through Reid's curly, thick hair, pulling and tugging, embracing the feel. Ever since that second wonderful kiss between them, he had a bit of a fetish with grabbing Reid's hair and not just when they were kissing. He loved the feel of the almost silky curls between his fingers and he couldn't imagine NOT doing it. Reid pulled away slowly, lips swollen, face flushed, looking even more sexy than before.
“Hmmm…” Luke hummed happily. “I was expecting some snarky remark. If I’d known you’d softened up, I would have said all this a long time ago.”
“I’m sure I’ll think of some good comebacks later, but right now, I’m too focused on getting my future husband naked,” Reid practically growled, quickly unzipping Luke’s red jacket. Luke sat up a bit, just as eager to get undressed. He quickly helped get the jacket off, both of them pulling it off quickly, Reid throwing it somewhere across the room. They both too focused on each other to care where it landed. Luke returned the favor, moving forward to suck and lick at Reid’s neck as he pulled his jacket off his shoulders. Reid moaned and Luke felt satisfaction at being able to cause those kinds of noises to come out of the man he loved more than anything. Luke pulled his t-shirt over his head and quickly began unbutton the buttons on Reid’s. Reid chuckled at Luke’s enthusiasm.
“Someone’s in a hurry,” he said with a proud smirk, no doubt loving how anxious Luke was to be with him.
“That a problem?” Luke asked in a low, husky tone, raising an incredulous brow, never halting his nimble fingers from their current task. Getting the last button undone, Reid helped pull the offending material away from his body, tossing it carelessly over his shoulder.
“Never,” Reid answered back, pushing Luke backwards as he straddled his hips, slamming his lips hard against Luke’s. Luke kissed back just as fervently, pulling Reid’s tongue into his mouth, sucking on it playfully. Reid smiled into the kiss, pulling back slightly to slowly swipe his tongue along Luke’s top lip, before swiftly doing the same to his bottom lip, tugging on it slightly with his teeth as he pushed his hips down towards Luke’s, creating delicious friction between them, hardness evident even through the denim of both their jeans. He pulled back, getting off of Luke long enough to pull his jeans off of him and Luke in record time. He once again straddled his young lover, their cocks touching and causing shudders to erupt between them. They began bucking against each other, in a now well-known rhythm, before Reid gripped Luke’s hip to stop him , gazing into Luke’s deep, chestnut gaze. Luke couldn’t help but admire the brilliant blue staring back at him, so open and honest and loving. It shook him to his core. His pupils were blown and full of lust as were Reid‘s. Reid was studying Luke, who stared back, holding his gaze, never looking away.
“God, I’m one lucky son of a bitch,” Reid said, awe in his tone.
“What?” Luke asked started through an awkward laugh. I’m the lucky one. I’ve got a brilliant, no-bullshit, dreamboat doctor I’m going to be able to wake up next to every morning for the rest of my life. Unconditional love and support. But me…I’m…He shook his head in an attempt to get the negative thoughts away; the nagging critical thoughts that had stayed in the back of his head their whole relationship, but had slowly made their way to the forefront since the moment Reid pulled out the box and proposed to him earlier than evening. He trailed his fingers along Reid’s ribs, pulling the man even more fully on top of him, causing the older man’s eyes to close, reveling in them touching each other from head to toe practically.
“I mean it,” he said. “I’m the luckiest guy on the goddamn planet right now and I’m going to be for the rest of my life because I have you in my life; because I’m loved by you.” He grabbed both of Luke’s hands, pinning them over his head against the arm of the couch, intertwining their fingers. He leaned his forehead against Luke’s, their breath mingling together, coming out sharp and unsteadily.
Luke went stiff beneath Reid. He could feel his muscles tensing up, felt the small frown tugging at his lips, and closed his eyes, willing himself to get his emotions in check. Don’t ruin this. Stop being an idiot. He opened just as Reid pulled away a bit, resting his weight on one elbow while one hand came up to wipe Luke’s slightly sweaty hair away from his face, sweetly running his fingers through the strands. “What is it?” he asked softly, seeming concerned and a little fearful.
“Nothing,” Luke said, voice cracking slightly. He leaned up to kiss Reid, but he pulled back, obviously not believing Luke for one minute. Luke rolled his eyes. “I promise, it’s nothing. Just me being stupid, that’s all. Come on Mr. Neurosurgeon, show me what you got before I go running off to Vegas with Henry.” His voice was light and he thought he’d backtracked pretty well, but Reid wouldn’t let go of his wrists when he attempted to move them and was still sending him that calculating look he did oh so well, mouth in a thin line. Luke felt like he was looking through him, burning a hole through him and he was starting to get uncomfortable. If it was possible, Reid drew his eyebrows together even more.
“I know you Luke,” he stated firmly, voice deep and stern. “It’s never nothing. Something just happened, something changed. Now you can either tell me and we can deal with it or you can keep up the act and we can both go to sleep without getting laid. You wanna go to bed happily fucked out and everything out in the open or unhappy and horny? Take your pick.”
Luke sighed, knowing there was no way he could get out of this. If he didn’t speak up, they were both going to be miserable and who knew how long this whole thing could get drawn out. Given how stubborn they could both be, the possibilities were endless. Plus, he didn’t want to lie to Reid about his feelings. That was hardly the best way to begin an engagement. He just needed to bite the bullet and talk. It’s not like Reid didn’t already know he had his insecurities. What was one more? Hopefully not enough to send him packing. He swallowed nervously, feeling more vulnerable and open than ever before in this position with Reid, naked, about to say things he was ashamed to say out loud.
“It’s just…you were saying how lucky you feel and all I could think of was how lucky I am that I’m going to be with you the rest of my life; how lucky I am to be loved and wanted by you.” Luke watched a small smile grace Reid’s features.
“Well, that’s true, you are pretty lucky you snagged me. ” he said cockily, getting Luke to give a small smile in return. It grew apprehensive quickly however. “That doesn’t explain you clamming up like that though.”
Luke closed his eyes briefly, letting out an quick breath before continuing just as quickly, speaking at an inexplicable pace. “I also couldn’t help thinking that being with me….being stuck with me for the rest of your life can’t really be considered lucky. I mean, are you sure about this? Marriage, I mean. Marriage is….marriage! It’s a huge step and I just want to make sure you’re taking that step with the right person. You could be with someone else, someone better who deserves you. I mean, me wanting to spend the rest of my life with you, THAT makes sense. But you wanting to be with me always and forever instead of someone else whose as wonderful as you, not so much.” When Reid didn’t say anything, only clenched his jaw and tightened his hold on his wrists, Luke cleared his throat nervously as his whole face burned up. “I guess you’re not the only one who has that nervous-rambling-problem-thing.”
Reid’s eyes, which held a hard edge to them throughout Luke’s spiel slowly softened after a few seconds, gazing at Luke like he was something precious and special, of which Luke felt completely undeserving, and therein lined the problem.
“Of all the things to pick up from me, you had to go for that one huh?” he said with his usual snarky attitude, but his voice cracked a bit and he spoke so low, Luke could barely hear him. He let go of Luke wrists, moving to a sitting position and pulling Luke with him. He pulled Luke into a fierce hug, a million emotions radiating off of him. Luke held back tightly, not sure what Reid was thinking after his little rant. Luke opened his mouth to say something, but Reid beat him to it. ‘
“Are you having second thoughts?”
What?! No. No. No. I knew I was going to screw this up. Way to go Snyder. Really.
“Of course I’m not!” His voice was earnest. “That’s….that’s not what….this wasn’t supposed to go this way. Can we please pretend I’m not the moron I am and that I didn’t completely fuck up and go back to celebrating? Please?” Begging. Real attractive.
“Not until this is straightened out,” Reid said seriously. “If you’re not having second thoughts, it’s okay. Just be upfront with me about it.”
“I’m not,” Luke repeated. How many times does a guy have to say it? “I swear.”
“Then what’s this about? You spouting on about how I should be with someone else and me wanting you isn’t realistic as you wanting me…where is all this coming from?”
Luke scratched behind his ear idly, nervously. “From me,” he muttered towards his chest, unable to tear his gaze away from the safety of his lap. “I want to marry you more than anything. I wasn’t saying those things out of having second thoughts or cold feet. I just….I wanted to make sure you weren’t or wouldn’t in the future I guess. You know, you see all these things in me I don’t see in myself and I know I can act confident in a business meeting or with my friends, but I’ve never felt like that in relationships. I’ve always felt like what could this person possibly see in me? It’s not going to last. He’s going to find something he hates and leave. Maybe that’s just from me or maybe it’s left over from Noah leaving me at the drop of the hat any time I made a mistake or did something he didn’t like or just something that will always be a part of me, I don’t know.” Luke paused for a second, trying to stop before he began hyperventilating or something and Reid opened his mouth to interrupt, probably to ease Luke’s fears but he held up a finger to his mouth to stop him. “Just let me get this out, please.”
Reid blinked a few times before slowly nodding, settling his hands on Luke’s waist to stop him from moving out of Reid’s personal space. Luke gave a small smile before continuing. “I don’t think of myself as someone whose….someone whose worth it; worth anything. I never have and that’s my problem, but I just need you to be sure about this because I’m completely sure. I love you. You’re everything to me and more. Even though sometimes I could smack you for some of the things that come out of your mouth, I love how in your face and honest you are. I love your whole attitude because I get to see both sides: confident and sarcastic, but then the other caring, emotional side and I just…I know you’re it for me. I don’t care what happens in the future, I know you’re the one. I just….I hope you think I’m the one for you too and don’t wake up regretting asking me ten years down the line…or one….or tomorrow.”
Reid sat there seemingly stunned. His face was stoic, but Luke could tell he hadn’t been expecting any of that. All of a sudden, Reid was pulling Luke up off the couch before suddenly picking Luke up, throwing him over his shoulder. “Ah! Reid, what’re you…”
“Shut up Luke,” Reid said, no malice behind the words; more of a request than a demand, but Luke could tell there was no room for argument. Luke would have laughed at the caveman act and the fact that this was all happening while they were buck naked had he not been so surprised and wondering what the hell was going through Reid’s head. He found himself being carried into the bedroom. Reid carefully guided him onto the bed, laying him down gently on his back. Luke opened his mouth to ask what was going on, but was cut off by Reid’s mouth on his, tongue tangling with his own, dominating the kiss. When Reid pulled away, Luke was already hard and panting.
“Reid-” he began again before Reid nipped at his ear, causing him to jump a bit.
“I’m going to show you exactly how sure I am,” Reid said sexily, mouthing his way down Luke’s jaw and neck. When he reached Luke’s nipples, he thoroughly sucked, licked, and nipped at them for a good ten minutes, alternating between the two buds equally until they were hard and pink, looking almost bruised against the white of Luke’s skin. Luke moaned in ecstasy at each touch of lips and tongue. He moaned Reid’s name loudly, making Reid as hard as a rock. He was determined to show Luke that all his fears and insecurity were baseless; that he meant every word he’d said all night and every day since they began dating. He kissed his way slowly down Luke’s chest, pausing to tease his tongue into Luke’s bellybutton, knowing how it drove the blonde crazy. Luke was gripping Reid’s hair harder and couldn’t help the unwanted squeak that came out of him as Reid began to suck the tip of his cock. He teased it with his tongue, before licking the shaft multiple times, and finally taking the entire length in his mouth quickly, relaxing his jaw and throat as to take in all of Luke. Luke alternated between pulled Reid’s hair and tugging at his own, lost in a haze of want and need and the feeling of hot suction around his member. Luke rocked his hips slightly, unable to stop himself, the feeling of Reid sucking his cock too wonderful to have any control over his body. Reid began to fondle his balls as he sucked harder and Luke could feel his release building. “Reid, I’m gonna-” he began, but didn’t get to finish as he suddenly came. Reid swallowed all of it, everything Luke had to offer, savoring the bittersweet taste, licking any cum left over thoroughly from the softening flesh. Luke was breathing hard, coming down from his high, trying to regain some composure from the best blowjob he’d ever had. Reid came up to his face, kissing him deeply, sharing the taste of Luke on his tongue. Luke gladly accepted, licking and sucking back almost aggressively. He tried to flip them over as to return the favor, but Reid wouldn’t budge.
“Nuh-uh” he said, wagging his finger in the air comically. He wetted his puffy lips before saying “I want to come inside you.” Luke felt his heart skip a beat and his cock begin to twitch, revving up for another round. Reid reached over in the drawer near his bed, pulling out the familiar lube, but not grabbing a condom. Figuring he just didn’t realize, Luke began to reach back into the drawer, but Reid stilled him with a firm grasp of his wrist, closing the drawer quickly. “I don’t want to use a condom. I want it to be just us.”
Luke froze, looking up at Reid with a confused and slightly scared expression on his face. No condom?
“I’ve never done this with anyone before, bareback that is,” Reid clarified, not that he needed to. “I want to share this with you; an experience we can share that’s only happened and will only happen between us. I want us to feel each other, without any barriers. We’re already as close as we can be emotionally. You proved that tonight. Now, I want to have that closeness physically. Not only do I know you’re the only one for me, you’re the only one I would do this with.”
Luke stared at him for a few moments, hardly breathing at all. This is huge. He really wants to…He felt like he might pass out. He quickly nodded, knowing he couldn’t say no to Reid, not that he really wanted to. He wanted to be as close as possible to his present and future and he trusted Reid. He loved Reid. He wanted this, just for them. He pulled Reid to him, kissing him soundly before, laying back, lifting his hips up. Reid squirted lube onto his fingers, slowly entering one finger into Luke’s tight hole. Luke tensed a bit at the intrusion, but quickly began to relax, enjoying the feel. After a few moments, Reid entered a second finger and when Reid brushed again Luke’s prostate, he was in heaven. When Reid added a third finger, Luke knew he was ready and needed to have Reid right away. “Reid, now,” he gasped, pushing his ass back onto the expert digits inside him.
“Aye Aye Captain,” Reid teased with a huge smile, mock saluting with his free hand. He pulled his fingers out and coated his cock with a ton of lube, slicking it up as much as he could. He threw the bottle back on the dresser and lifted Luke’s legs onto his shoulders. His cock brushed Luke’s ass and Luke let out a small whimper.
“Anxious, are we?” Reid teased. Luke rolled his eyes with a laugh, raising his eyebrows, silently urging Reid to continue. Reid slowly guided his cock inside, Luke’s hole still so tight. Reid gasped out loud, as did Luke, both feeling skin on skin, tight heat, and no latex barrier to separate them. Reid bit his lip, forcing himself not to push forward, allowing Luke to adjust to the feeling. “You okay?”
Luke felt the first pinprick jolt of pain, but soon, he felt the overwhelming pleasure overtake him. He sighed happily, nodding his head. “Intense….even more…than usual…amazing…”
Reid’s smile could have lit up the whole room. “You haven’t felt anything yet.” Reid pushed forward, slowly at first, steadily pumping in and out, drawing soft, raspy moans out of the beautiful blonde beneath him. He sped up rapidly, changing the angle. Luke groaned louder, digging his fingers into the sheets, knuckles turning instantly white.
“Reid…” he panted breathlessly, completely lost in a heavenly state.
“Luke” he replied, voice almost longing. “Feels so good…so right…” Reid could feel his release getting close. He grabbed Luke’s cock, tugging and pulling sensually. Luke moaned even louder and Reid wanted to see him let go so badly.
“Come Luke. Come for me,” he urged. Luke’s eyes were closed tightly, face scrunched up as his own release crept closer. Reid was having none of that. “Open your eyes Luke.”
Luke’s eyes shot open, sending the most intense, loving, sensual look Reid’s way; eyes half hooded. Reid held his gaze, continuing to jack Luke’s cock faster, matching each stroke with each push inside Luke, continuously hitting the spot inside Luke that made him weak. Suddenly, they were both coming, hard and fast. Reid collapsed on top of Luke, completely spent, shuddering breaths grazing Luke’s chest and neck. Luke’s chest rose and fell heavily, hands soothing in Reid’s curls, holding him close to his chest. They were sweaty and the cum between them was messy, but neither cared. Neither was moving anytime soon.
When both Reid and Luke finally found themselves coming back down to Earth, Reid moved his head off Luke’s chest, laying it onto the pillow next to Luke’s, waiting for him to turn and meet his gaze. Luke did instantly, eyes large and a little wet, biting his lip. Reid brought up a hand to tenderly cup Luke’s cheek and Luke instantly leaned into the touch.
“I know what I want Luke. I wouldn’t have asked you to marry me if I wasn’t completely, absolutely positive that I was exactly where I wanted to be. And as far as me deserving someone better, that’s bull, because there is no one else like you in this inbreed hick town or anywhere in the world. You may have your flaws, but so do I.” Reid pinched Luke playfully when he snorted slightly at the obvious statement. “It’s what makes us….us. We fit together. So, you better get over all this insecurity crap quick because you’re already wearing the ring and I don’t plan on letting you take it off ever. You’re mine and I’m yours, even more so now than before. Get used to it.”
Luke bit his lip, stalling the tears he could feel building up. I’ve never been more happy in my entire life. He nodded his head shakily, bringing Reid close, kissing his forehead, cheek, and lips, quick but caring. “I love you,” he stated resolutely. It was the truest thing in his life.
“I love you too.”
Reid was staring at him that way that made his soul feel on fire again and Luke cleared his throat, snuggling deeper into the bed, one arm lazily tracing circles on Reid’s hip. He felt the need to break the serious tension around them and had the perfect way to do just that.
“So, want to stay up discussing wedding plans?” he asked teasingly. Reid rolled his eyes dramatically, looking as if he’d rather screw nails into his eye sockets before subjecting himself to such a horror. Luke continued, “I think we should have a Rocky Horror Picture Show theme. You can be Dr. Frankenfurter, for obvious reasons, and I could be Rocky.”
Reid laughed out loud, sarcasm dripping just through the sound. “I knew I shouldn’t have let you watch that for the hundredth time the other night. Sure, let’s do that. Then every couple in this town including your parents can show up and Janet and Brad.”
“You would look hot in that costume.”
“In your dreams.”
“Alright. How about this? We have a small “normal” little ceremony, but one night, we do a little…role-playing with RHPS,” Luke finished hotly, flashing a sly smirk in Reid’s direction.
Reid seemed to contemplate for a few moments before breaking out in his signature smirk. “You in golden shorts, showing off that tight, hot little ass of yours? Count me in.”
They smiled cheekily at each other as they moved closer, closing their eyes, ready to make their way into dreamland. Just as Reid was about to drift off, he heard Luke mumble his name.
“What?”
“You’re going to make a great husband.” The best.
Reid didn’t open his eyes, but he didn’t need to. He knew that goofy, self-satisfied, blissed out grin surely across Luke’s face by heart. It was imprinted in his head. He also knew his face looked exactly the same way.
“You too Luke.”
And with that, their engagement night ended, both sleeping peacefully in the arms of the man they loved, knowing they had this to look forward to every night for the rest of their lives. They’d make sure of it.