What if ...
it is YOUR fault?
You know that scene in Good Will Hunting when Robin Williams tells Matt Damon, "It's not your fault." I'm wrestling with the possibilty that with regard to past relationships it might very well be MY fault.
Everyone in this world walks around with gigantic walls protecting us from whatever rational or irrational fears inhabit our psyche. The root of these fears stem from a variety of things--parental relations, past failed relationships, etc. Those of us who fancy ourselves gurus of self-awareness feel as though just recognizing them deals with them.
I know my issues. I verbalize them every once in awhile to certain people I consider close friends. These admissions serve as proof to myself and the world that I have sufficiently "dealt" with them. But, the more I look back on my life and my relationships, I begin to realize that I may very well be the reason they all failed.
My walls push people away. I do various things to sabotage my relationships. I want them in theory, but fear them in reality. Now, if only I could find a solution ...
You know that scene in Good Will Hunting when Robin Williams tells Matt Damon, "It's not your fault." I'm wrestling with the possibilty that with regard to past relationships it might very well be MY fault.
Everyone in this world walks around with gigantic walls protecting us from whatever rational or irrational fears inhabit our psyche. The root of these fears stem from a variety of things--parental relations, past failed relationships, etc. Those of us who fancy ourselves gurus of self-awareness feel as though just recognizing them deals with them.
I know my issues. I verbalize them every once in awhile to certain people I consider close friends. These admissions serve as proof to myself and the world that I have sufficiently "dealt" with them. But, the more I look back on my life and my relationships, I begin to realize that I may very well be the reason they all failed.
My walls push people away. I do various things to sabotage my relationships. I want them in theory, but fear them in reality. Now, if only I could find a solution ...