Ten Years Later.

May 08, 2013 14:04

Well. I've had this livejournal for just over 10 years and what have I accomplished? I'm not even sure where I left off as I haven't read my last few entries, but I can assure you that my life is vastly different from what I pictured it to be 10 years ago.

I'm living in south jersey with my fiance Scott, I'm working 10 minutes outside of Atlantic City at a great job in an Allstate agency with an awesome boss and equally aweseome coworkers and I hooked up with a couple like-minded musicians playing gigs in the house band on saxophone, as well as flute in a classical trio. Tomorrow will be 6 months until the wedding and at the end of June of this year I will officially own free and clear the first car that I've ever purchased. Today is actually the 2nd anniversary of our engagement.

There's really only one thing I have left to do on my immediate bucket list: get our own place. I have been living with my future in-laws since November of 2011 and since we're getting married in 6 months I would love for us to start off our lives together with our own space and our own rules. However, financial burdens have made this near impossible. We will continue to work towards it but my patience is understandably wearing thin.

Since July of 2011 I have had 3 surgeries and 4 hospitalizations. July 2011 I had my appendix out, Sept 2011 I had the appendix wound reopened and reclosed, Feb 2012 I had a mesh put in place to correct the mess that the first surgeon and surgeries created, and late March of 2013 I was hospitalized for asthma complications. Medical debt is horrible, but there is no interest charged to that, and so I can pay it off bit by bit. I was going to have all of my medical debt paid off by the end of October of this year, however the latest hospitalization just added around $5,000 to the end of the list. Oh well...I'll just keep paying it off.

What is a livejournal post without drama? Let's see...the only drama I really have aside from the living situation would be the wedding planning. I picked 4 girls, Scott picked 4 guys. I have since had to replace my matron of honor, Scott has had to replace a groomsmen, replace the best man and now replace another groomsman. What is it with this wedding party stuff? I don't get it...I was asked to be a bridesmaid once and I was very excited and honored to be involved. Everyone has their reasons, one of them was a very good reason, one of them was a work-related reason and the other, well, makes no sense to me. I'm getting to the point where as excited as I want to be, I can't be, because one of the members is causing drama for the others, and of course the others are going to tell me. I wish it would just stop. This day is happening because Scott and I fell in love and want to share our lives, not because someone has no money or no time or can't be bothered with this now. We're 6 months out - quit now or jump on the bandwagon. The time for pussyfooting around is over. Theres also that bit about my Mother paying basically all of the wedding costs...but we'll save that for a later date.

The weight has been a yo yo problem, but in the worst way. I'd lose 10 lbs, but then gain 15. Things got so out of hand that now I'm a full blown type 2 diabetic, taking two different anti-diabetic drugs. The only upshot is that I'm not so out of control that I need insulin. I've been doing well with the medications and made some tweaks to my diet, but I'm not losing much. I always said I wasn't going to be a beached whale at my wedding, and now 6 months out I guess I have nothing to say other than it's my own fault. I'm at least 30 lbs less than I was at the time of my third surgery. However, that was over a year ago. I was born heavy, I grew up heavy, I got healthy in highschool, ballooned up in college and stayed heavy through my 20's. Although I have extremely supportive friends and coworkers, the change needs to come from within. I have a wedding dress hanging up in my mother's room that doesn't quite fit. Not sure how that happened, considering the size down fit in the store. We ordered the next size up to be safe, and it doesn't fit. I lost a few lbs since we bought it...the only thing I can think of is that I just bloated.

I'm excited for what's to come in the next few months. Wedding planning - all the big stuff is done, now it's onto the little things, like playlists, picture lists and making favors and flower baskets etc.

That's it for now, really. 'Till my next update, whenever that may be.
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