woohoo moment..dont ask
YEP YEP!! IM TRYING TO BE ALL HAPPY AND CRAP!! YAY!!!....ok back to why....my grandma's heart beat is irregular....i woke up to my mom crying....i thought i was about to cry..tears all ready about to fall..then she turned around and looked at me...i made a funny comment saying she left the car door open....and made it look like i was tired...i hope she fell for it...i think she did. She cried almost every time she saw her....i was trying to feel strong...and make her know im there and stuff....be strong...thats what i can do..yea...be strong for everybody...not cry...there suffering...i have to help them...make them know im strong and everything will be ok...which it is...yea...everything will be fine. My grandma needs a pacemaker or something like that....im so stupid.....i need to try harder...try much harder....nobody should cry...and i should not shed a tear....god help me.