Spamming after no entries for ages. Sorry. But....
On the second monorail so far and according to my Fitbit, my heart rate has dropped back to 83/resting.
Was one of the first on so got a seat as far away from the crowd as possible. One guy didn't sit next to me as I was blowing my nose. I didn't correct him that I wasn't sick, just crying.
What annoys me the most about all this is that I am NOT a cryer. I don't let stuff get to me. The fact that one of my eyes is still leaking is neither here nor there - it's the same eye that has been drooping for a while, something I shall visit my doctor for if it doesn't sort itself out. (Season changes, climate changes etc...)
I can't believe still that I swore at a stranger although to be fair he asked for it as he was a knob. But totally irrelevant when it ended up making me look like the full on psycho. I guess the alternative was just to scream. So saying that quietly and disembarking was probably the safer option.
I'm hoping that this is just misbehaving hormones, although I thought that was more for the beginning of next week.... but if not, what the actual hell? Yes I've been taking my meds. I've not had an anxiety attack for so long, this has actually thrown me.
Even now, writing this, I can feel myself welling up again and this is simply ridiculous. No I'm not homesick. No I'm also not sad it's my last full day of my trip. No I don't feel overly tired. When I am connected to the internet, I shall see if a couple of people are online. There's only one person I want to chat to right now who I know can make me feel better but even that has its own elements of stress, sort of.
Ok 17:32 and next stop is mine.
Was one of the first on so got a seat as far away from the crowd as possible. One guy didn't sit next to me as I was blowing my nose. I didn't correct him that I wasn't sick, just crying.
What annoys me the most about all this is that I am NOT a cryer. I don't let stuff get to me. The fact that one of my eyes is still leaking is neither here nor there - it's the same eye that has been drooping for a while, something I shall visit my doctor for if it doesn't sort itself out. (Season changes, climate changes etc...)
I can't believe still that I swore at a stranger although to be fair he asked for it as he was a knob. But totally irrelevant when it ended up making me look like the full on psycho. I guess the alternative was just to scream. So saying that quietly and disembarking was probably the safer option.
I'm hoping that this is just misbehaving hormones, although I thought that was more for the beginning of next week.... but if not, what the actual hell? Yes I've been taking my meds. I've not had an anxiety attack for so long, this has actually thrown me.
Even now, writing this, I can feel myself welling up again and this is simply ridiculous. No I'm not homesick. No I'm also not sad it's my last full day of my trip. No I don't feel overly tired. When I am connected to the internet, I shall see if a couple of people are online. There's only one person I want to chat to right now who I know can make me feel better but even that has its own elements of stress, sort of.
Ok 17:32 and next stop is mine.