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Adam Worthington's attentions are obviously driving me insane. I am at a point of intersection in my life - or some such rot - from which I could go one of two ways. Or...well. Three, I suppose. Possibly more. I should think about this further. Maybe this journal thing will help me figure things out.
Option 1: Kill Adam Worthington (gets rid of all the problems rather neatly).
Option 2: Blow Adam Worthington (in theory, this should quell his urges or...something).
Option 3: Continue trying to ignore him and pray I make it to the end of the year.
Option 4 (I knew there would be more): Have someone else kill Adam Worthington (much less messy, and Draco would probably enjoy doing it, too).
Option 5: ...
Well. It would appear I have run out of options at four. This is not an issue, though, as four options seems like a great many, given the situation.
Now to analyze the options.
Option 1 - Would probably take a great deal of effort I do not feel like putting into getting rid of Adam Worthington. And I've already got one too many deaths on my conscience.
Option 2 - We are not thinking about this at the moment. Though it might Just no.
Option 3 - This method has proven beyond useless. My ignoring him has no effect whatsoever and, in fact, seems to encourage him to grope me. Very disheartening. (Note: Glaring and physical injury don't seem to have any sort of effect, either.)
Option 4 - This would also take a great deal of effort - I'd have to convince Draco that it would be worth his while, which I don't see happening any time soon. Also, I have put one too many deaths on the consciences of my friends.
...
I wish I had more options.
Since I don't, I suppose I should review them again and...well. Having done that...the only thing that looks as though it might be feasible is giving him some sort of gratification - some sort of satisfaction. Most men tire fairly quickly after the initial burst of interest. So, perhaps, if I give him what he wants his enthusiasm will wane and I will be left in peace.
Perhaps.
This bears more thinking, I believe. How I do wish I could talk to someone about all this nonsense. Quentin seems to have disappeared again...Gabriel is acting like a loon. Theodore's always off and about. Daphne is quite wrapped up in Aries Black - silly girl. Padma's off doing Ravenclaw-ish things...ah Blaise. Blaise is so very...concerned with other things. And rightly so. He is my very favorite person in the world, really, and I wouldn't want him to worry unnecessarily. I will just have to deal with this myself.
Speaking of dealing. Morag has seemed somewhat distracted lately - her unadulterated hatred of me has been a bit off - as in not constant. She's even stopped glaring at me. Which is most disconcerting. I'd almost managed to get used to her sarcastic, cutting comments.
Alas. I should most likely try finding out why. And I will find out. As soon as I am put this Adam Worthington debacle behind me.
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Draco, I really must speak with you.
Everyone else I customarily do things with, please don't bother trying to find me. I am currently avoiding massive amounts of Transfiguration (again) and would therefore appreciate my solitude.
~Pansy
Adam Worthington's attentions are obviously driving me insane. I am at a point of intersection in my life - or some such rot - from which I could go one of two ways. Or...well. Three, I suppose. Possibly more. I should think about this further. Maybe this journal thing will help me figure things out.
Option 1: Kill Adam Worthington (gets rid of all the problems rather neatly).
Option 2: Blow Adam Worthington (in theory, this should quell his urges or...something).
Option 3: Continue trying to ignore him and pray I make it to the end of the year.
Option 4 (I knew there would be more): Have someone else kill Adam Worthington (much less messy, and Draco would probably enjoy doing it, too).
Option 5: ...
Well. It would appear I have run out of options at four. This is not an issue, though, as four options seems like a great many, given the situation.
Now to analyze the options.
Option 1 - Would probably take a great deal of effort I do not feel like putting into getting rid of Adam Worthington. And I've already got one too many deaths on my conscience.
Option 2 - We are not thinking about this at the moment. Though it might Just no.
Option 3 - This method has proven beyond useless. My ignoring him has no effect whatsoever and, in fact, seems to encourage him to grope me. Very disheartening. (Note: Glaring and physical injury don't seem to have any sort of effect, either.)
Option 4 - This would also take a great deal of effort - I'd have to convince Draco that it would be worth his while, which I don't see happening any time soon. Also, I have put one too many deaths on the consciences of my friends.
...
I wish I had more options.
Since I don't, I suppose I should review them again and...well. Having done that...the only thing that looks as though it might be feasible is giving him some sort of gratification - some sort of satisfaction. Most men tire fairly quickly after the initial burst of interest. So, perhaps, if I give him what he wants his enthusiasm will wane and I will be left in peace.
Perhaps.
This bears more thinking, I believe. How I do wish I could talk to someone about all this nonsense. Quentin seems to have disappeared again...Gabriel is acting like a loon. Theodore's always off and about. Daphne is quite wrapped up in Aries Black - silly girl. Padma's off doing Ravenclaw-ish things...ah Blaise. Blaise is so very...concerned with other things. And rightly so. He is my very favorite person in the world, really, and I wouldn't want him to worry unnecessarily. I will just have to deal with this myself.
Speaking of dealing. Morag has seemed somewhat distracted lately - her unadulterated hatred of me has been a bit off - as in not constant. She's even stopped glaring at me. Which is most disconcerting. I'd almost managed to get used to her sarcastic, cutting comments.
Alas. I should most likely try finding out why. And I will find out. As soon as I am put this Adam Worthington debacle behind me.
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Draco, I really must speak with you.
Everyone else I customarily do things with, please don't bother trying to find me. I am currently avoiding massive amounts of Transfiguration (again) and would therefore appreciate my solitude.
~Pansy