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I feel very...non-existant at the moment...
And I still can't get the picture of my grandmother's coffin out of my head...
It all just hurts too much...
I just...
I want to make it all go away.
Everything.
I've been re-thinking about moving away again.
Selling nearly everything I own and just...disappearing. Not like many people would go, "Hey where did he go off to?"
I was thinking about going to Chile. Either that or California...or Spain...California would be the gateway to Japan at one point....but Spain...god..I could backpack Europe. And that...would be amazing.
Or..I could go camping again. I kinda want to go back to Assateague Island and camp out. I also very much so want to go back to Yellowstone. Maybe I'll say fuck it to school again and blow my money on another cross country trip.
Speaking of blowing my money...Final Fantasy 13 comes out at midnight. I'm working 5 to 10 today. I'll head home. Chill for a bit...head back to GameStop and get the game. Go home and either stay up and play or go to bed since I work 9 to 2 the next morning....Chances are I'll probably just go to bed. I'm also going to get an apadravya piercing. Most probably this Friday. I've put it off long enough and soon as I get my money my friend Elyse said she'd go with me(and record it~). We'll either go to Jack Brown's in Fredricksburg or Rick's in Arlington where I got my eyebrow done. I kinda want to go to JB's since there is a tattoo artist I want to talk to about getting a tattoo.
And now off to bed. Early to bed tonight. Perhaps more tomorrow. There is something I wrote while at work I want to post up. Also perhaps a poem or two.
Heiwa
Ja ne
And I still can't get the picture of my grandmother's coffin out of my head...
It all just hurts too much...
I just...
I want to make it all go away.
Everything.
I've been re-thinking about moving away again.
Selling nearly everything I own and just...disappearing. Not like many people would go, "Hey where did he go off to?"
I was thinking about going to Chile. Either that or California...or Spain...California would be the gateway to Japan at one point....but Spain...god..I could backpack Europe. And that...would be amazing.
Or..I could go camping again. I kinda want to go back to Assateague Island and camp out. I also very much so want to go back to Yellowstone. Maybe I'll say fuck it to school again and blow my money on another cross country trip.
Speaking of blowing my money...Final Fantasy 13 comes out at midnight. I'm working 5 to 10 today. I'll head home. Chill for a bit...head back to GameStop and get the game. Go home and either stay up and play or go to bed since I work 9 to 2 the next morning....Chances are I'll probably just go to bed. I'm also going to get an apadravya piercing. Most probably this Friday. I've put it off long enough and soon as I get my money my friend Elyse said she'd go with me(and record it~). We'll either go to Jack Brown's in Fredricksburg or Rick's in Arlington where I got my eyebrow done. I kinda want to go to JB's since there is a tattoo artist I want to talk to about getting a tattoo.
And now off to bed. Early to bed tonight. Perhaps more tomorrow. There is something I wrote while at work I want to post up. Also perhaps a poem or two.
Heiwa
Ja ne