My one update of the day just for Chyna
If you really want to read this, go ahead and read it, I don't care.
So life has kicked ass recently. It's Monday!!! parties are wonderful and work is the shit and the NHS induction was silly and boring but I still enjoyed it and got some hot pics out of it as well. My digital camera is loads of fun as well cuz I can capture my hotness with the push of a button!
I have decided that counseling would be a good career choice for me because I really enjoy talking people through problems and helping them out when they need advice and stuff, I've been doing it more lately than usual and it really feels right. Of course I still want to be a writer and a chemist and a mathematician and an advertising agent and a CEO and all sorts of other stuff, but I know this works for me, at least for now, it would be worth looking into.
Which leads me to thinking about college... is UNL really the right choice? Is there somewhere else that would be better? Where do I even start? I haven't exploerd any of these places that sent me mail constantly or looked into other colleges who have not sent me stuff or anywhere other than UNL. I think a series of college trips would be a good idea because it's the rest of my life! I know UNL would be fine and all, but would somewhere else be even better? Gah, the future.
At least the future is bright now that I'm not moody over everything all the time forever. I'm getting a little perspective on things since working and having things to do so I don't get so bored and have time to think about how depressed I am and stuff. I think the real cause of my depression was a lack of things to do. I used to think best friends or girlfriends were the only form of something I could do, and without them I would be miserable. Also, my views of best friends and girlfriends were warped from the common conception so I had outrageous standards for what those people should do for me. Now, with work, I find my time is occupied and I have friends there and now that I have my head on straight I don't have time to think up crazy conspiracy theories about how everyone is plotting against me, and I can appreciate all of the stuff that friends do do for me, not just focus on the negatives.
I really hope this isn't one of those moments I have to say that I'm fine just to say that I'm fine, and then a week later I have a breakdown, cuz that would suck and I'm really enjoying this happy. I don't think anyone can take work away from me, and if they do I like working enough that I would find somewhere else to work.
And on that note I will end my daily LJ post just for Chyna (and I guess Cliff and Joe and Megan, but Megan reads Xangas now so that's good.)
I have switched over to Xanga, if you didn't notice, so I recommend getting one of those as well. They're great.
Really, I think just a large group of people switched to Xanga for no real reason, myself included, and thus we're thinking it's cooler. Someone will be mad at someone else on Xanga and will then switch to LJ, starting a huge trend of LJ again. But until then, stick with the Xanga.
Okay for real now I am moving, but you can read more from me at the Xanga of the same username as this LJ.
ALSO Heather and I are having Bowling &/or Huhot Night on Saturday, & a Halloween Party on Monday (if we're not working) which consists of a haunted house & then maxin & relaxin at my house cuz it's the cool place to be. So if you want to come to either of those events, you're invited, just RSVP me soon so we can gauge how many people are coming. And yes, we're going even if it's just us cuz we are the coolest people ever... the end.
So life has kicked ass recently. It's Monday!!! parties are wonderful and work is the shit and the NHS induction was silly and boring but I still enjoyed it and got some hot pics out of it as well. My digital camera is loads of fun as well cuz I can capture my hotness with the push of a button!
I have decided that counseling would be a good career choice for me because I really enjoy talking people through problems and helping them out when they need advice and stuff, I've been doing it more lately than usual and it really feels right. Of course I still want to be a writer and a chemist and a mathematician and an advertising agent and a CEO and all sorts of other stuff, but I know this works for me, at least for now, it would be worth looking into.
Which leads me to thinking about college... is UNL really the right choice? Is there somewhere else that would be better? Where do I even start? I haven't exploerd any of these places that sent me mail constantly or looked into other colleges who have not sent me stuff or anywhere other than UNL. I think a series of college trips would be a good idea because it's the rest of my life! I know UNL would be fine and all, but would somewhere else be even better? Gah, the future.
At least the future is bright now that I'm not moody over everything all the time forever. I'm getting a little perspective on things since working and having things to do so I don't get so bored and have time to think about how depressed I am and stuff. I think the real cause of my depression was a lack of things to do. I used to think best friends or girlfriends were the only form of something I could do, and without them I would be miserable. Also, my views of best friends and girlfriends were warped from the common conception so I had outrageous standards for what those people should do for me. Now, with work, I find my time is occupied and I have friends there and now that I have my head on straight I don't have time to think up crazy conspiracy theories about how everyone is plotting against me, and I can appreciate all of the stuff that friends do do for me, not just focus on the negatives.
I really hope this isn't one of those moments I have to say that I'm fine just to say that I'm fine, and then a week later I have a breakdown, cuz that would suck and I'm really enjoying this happy. I don't think anyone can take work away from me, and if they do I like working enough that I would find somewhere else to work.
And on that note I will end my daily LJ post just for Chyna (and I guess Cliff and Joe and Megan, but Megan reads Xangas now so that's good.)
I have switched over to Xanga, if you didn't notice, so I recommend getting one of those as well. They're great.
Really, I think just a large group of people switched to Xanga for no real reason, myself included, and thus we're thinking it's cooler. Someone will be mad at someone else on Xanga and will then switch to LJ, starting a huge trend of LJ again. But until then, stick with the Xanga.
Okay for real now I am moving, but you can read more from me at the Xanga of the same username as this LJ.
ALSO Heather and I are having Bowling &/or Huhot Night on Saturday, & a Halloween Party on Monday (if we're not working) which consists of a haunted house & then maxin & relaxin at my house cuz it's the cool place to be. So if you want to come to either of those events, you're invited, just RSVP me soon so we can gauge how many people are coming. And yes, we're going even if it's just us cuz we are the coolest people ever... the end.