overcome with feelings
Have you ever been so overcome by a feeling you dont know what to do? or overcome by multiple feelings at once? I never thought i would be dependent on someone else to brighten my day or be so mentally and physically attatched. I miss John, and its strange for me to voice this on lj because i hate sharing how i feel, or the fact that i love him. I have all this emotion and no where to put it. So..... here I am telling the entir lj community how i feel.
John went away for the weekend, and i am usually very egocentric, and never think outside myself.... but i had 2 thoughts. One this must be how john feels when i go home for the weekend and two i cant remember right now, but im sure it will come back. I typed to slow and forgot. Anyway, I remember i realized this is wjhat it would be like if JOhn and I broke up. Definatly not fun.
John is an amazing person and I really dont know how to voice this in words. He is always kind, loving, caring, and never selfish. I dont feel i ever give him what he gives to me. I cant wait to get our rings so we can have a physical symbol of how we feel for eachtother.
JOhn went away to a housing conference this weekend, and I hate the housing conference stuff.... I think its boring, but i cant wait to hear about it because I love john. That was not a real connectiona s to why i want to hear about the conference but its how i feel. JOhn bought me a massage and a manicure and pedicure while he was gone. Everyone who worked in thr spa kept talking about how lucky I am and I really am. They asked how long we were together and things like that. They said WOW hes that good to you and you have only been together that short amount of time. I thought to myself if they only knew about valentines day. JOhn made an amazing indoor picnic and a video of dru and our jumpstart song from last year. It was adorable and made me cry tears of happiness. I dont think i have ever loved or cared for someone in this way before.
The other night i ran into an ex, and i was like wow i still really like them, but i think its more being afraid of really loving john in such an intense way. I really truly believe that I could spend the rest of my life with John. HMMMMMM what a thought.
I cant believe that i just wrote this entry... i will probably delete it before anyone readsd it, but if you do read it, now you know how i feel and I am proud and happy to be with John, i wouldnt want to be with anyone else.
John went away for the weekend, and i am usually very egocentric, and never think outside myself.... but i had 2 thoughts. One this must be how john feels when i go home for the weekend and two i cant remember right now, but im sure it will come back. I typed to slow and forgot. Anyway, I remember i realized this is wjhat it would be like if JOhn and I broke up. Definatly not fun.
John is an amazing person and I really dont know how to voice this in words. He is always kind, loving, caring, and never selfish. I dont feel i ever give him what he gives to me. I cant wait to get our rings so we can have a physical symbol of how we feel for eachtother.
JOhn went away to a housing conference this weekend, and I hate the housing conference stuff.... I think its boring, but i cant wait to hear about it because I love john. That was not a real connectiona s to why i want to hear about the conference but its how i feel. JOhn bought me a massage and a manicure and pedicure while he was gone. Everyone who worked in thr spa kept talking about how lucky I am and I really am. They asked how long we were together and things like that. They said WOW hes that good to you and you have only been together that short amount of time. I thought to myself if they only knew about valentines day. JOhn made an amazing indoor picnic and a video of dru and our jumpstart song from last year. It was adorable and made me cry tears of happiness. I dont think i have ever loved or cared for someone in this way before.
The other night i ran into an ex, and i was like wow i still really like them, but i think its more being afraid of really loving john in such an intense way. I really truly believe that I could spend the rest of my life with John. HMMMMMM what a thought.
I cant believe that i just wrote this entry... i will probably delete it before anyone readsd it, but if you do read it, now you know how i feel and I am proud and happy to be with John, i wouldnt want to be with anyone else.