(no subject)
i have come to a conclusion, an epiphany almost of sorts. I have realized that i am no longer tied down, my entire life i have been chained, but now im not, i have come to this conclusion through many ways, but i finally realized i had the potential when i became desperate. like when the first bird flew to avoid death. but i am not alone in this, there are probably millions more, but given the deepness of thought i had to put through, there may be alot fewer then that. i have also realized that i have naturally manipulated people in the most subtle way, i do it naturally, i have set up an entire intricate illusion of myself that has shadowed peoples views on me and perhaps have influenced their daily lives, but i suppose everyone has that ability whether they realize it or not, whether they want to or not. but i digress. it is quite simple for a person to break the chains of themselves, but whether they should or not is the true question. i, although know i have the full potential to do as i please, will not for various reasons, because i am a person who deeply cares for the thought of others. perhaps that is why many people tell me crap i dont want to hear sometimes. but i will still listen to them as if it meant life or death. i dont know wat it is about me, it is like i have some sort of aura that goes around me that makes people reveal things to me first. but strangely enough it does not seem to work all the time over the internet. go figure. but i tend to be the first person to hear things that will change peoples lives, i can mostly think of a choice incident that affected the lives of my entire family, but due to certain circumstances, i will not reveal them unless asked, in which case i shall indulge you. unfortunetly for me, my deep love for a person emotions has caused me to torment my mind, because i will at times feel guilt for things i had not control over, and at times i will have no remorse for things i had total control over. but i do not want to hurt your eyes to badly staring at a screen, or bore you too much, so maybe more another time, if i remember, which i might not, heh