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About a year ago, I realized I'm not who I thought I was. For longest time, I was lead to believe that I was "special". That I was pretty damn smart, and somehow that meant I was just one step ahead of everyone... that I could go to special classes, take special tests before anyone my age, that I was more then just another kid. And my junior/senior year, I noticed that for all my intellect and mental prowness, I still made stupid mistakes. I disliked my parents, I rushed into situations without a single thought. I saw myself for what I really was: an average boy.
So now, I have only confirmed this idea. Sure, I might be in the Honors College and blah blah, but I'm really not on some higher plane than anyone else. I can and probably have made the same mistakes as the next guy in line. If I trip I'll still fall; if I'm cut I'll still bleed.
But now, here's where it's different. We can make the same mistakes, eventually. How we deal and react to all these situations truly defines ourselves, in a sense.
So where am I now? Somewhere between empty and confused, for the moment. But for as much as react to our decisions, I believe what and how we learn from them also shows our true colors. If someone makes a mistake, shrugs it off, and go about their merry little life unchanged, then they are on a lower plane. I... well, I can only hope that if I was ever presented with the same situation twice, I'd make more right decisions. Actually, I know I would. That why I'm "special". Because I learn from my decisions, and sometimes even make the right ones before any other kind.
It's not Me > You or vice versa. Just be yourself, and we'll all be fine.
Two lighter notes: my wonderful Brianne is awesome, and every single one of you is required to see "Sin City". That is all.
So now, I have only confirmed this idea. Sure, I might be in the Honors College and blah blah, but I'm really not on some higher plane than anyone else. I can and probably have made the same mistakes as the next guy in line. If I trip I'll still fall; if I'm cut I'll still bleed.
But now, here's where it's different. We can make the same mistakes, eventually. How we deal and react to all these situations truly defines ourselves, in a sense.
So where am I now? Somewhere between empty and confused, for the moment. But for as much as react to our decisions, I believe what and how we learn from them also shows our true colors. If someone makes a mistake, shrugs it off, and go about their merry little life unchanged, then they are on a lower plane. I... well, I can only hope that if I was ever presented with the same situation twice, I'd make more right decisions. Actually, I know I would. That why I'm "special". Because I learn from my decisions, and sometimes even make the right ones before any other kind.
It's not Me > You or vice versa. Just be yourself, and we'll all be fine.
Two lighter notes: my wonderful Brianne is awesome, and every single one of you is required to see "Sin City". That is all.