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I'm in Kuwait. Next stop from here is the US. This deployment has been way, way too long. Many things happened and I learned a lot about myself and others. Most of it I would gladly have skipped. Had it gone on much longer, Kassi and I would probably both have gone insane.
I need rest and time to think about things and get to grips with where I am and where I'm going. I should have time to when I get back, but then again, perhaps not. More work ahead than behind.
You may think you know exactly what to expect from something, but it's never like what you thought it would be when you actually experience it firsthand.
I'm so fucking exhausted. My brain hurts. I'm happy to be going home, but I have a lot to figure out and I don't really know what to do with it all right now. I'm not the person I thought I was, or perhaps I'm someone that I haven't wanted to admit to being before experience forced me to face reality. And Kassi and I have both changed a lot over the past seven months, which is going to make reintegrating our lives interesting. Prolonged separation can be very destructive. I guess the positive side is that if our relationship was able to survive this, it should be able to survive just about anything in future. But (to me, anyway) that was never a question in the first place.
Fallujah was very different this year. I'll write more about it when I get the time/inclination.
I need rest and time to think about things and get to grips with where I am and where I'm going. I should have time to when I get back, but then again, perhaps not. More work ahead than behind.
You may think you know exactly what to expect from something, but it's never like what you thought it would be when you actually experience it firsthand.
I'm so fucking exhausted. My brain hurts. I'm happy to be going home, but I have a lot to figure out and I don't really know what to do with it all right now. I'm not the person I thought I was, or perhaps I'm someone that I haven't wanted to admit to being before experience forced me to face reality. And Kassi and I have both changed a lot over the past seven months, which is going to make reintegrating our lives interesting. Prolonged separation can be very destructive. I guess the positive side is that if our relationship was able to survive this, it should be able to survive just about anything in future. But (to me, anyway) that was never a question in the first place.
Fallujah was very different this year. I'll write more about it when I get the time/inclination.